Monday, February 02, 2026

The Battle of First Bull Run: 21 July 1861


A Clamor for Blood  -  A Parade into Virginia  -  Odd Femininity at Fairfax  -
The Skirmish at Blackburn's Ford  -  McDowell's Plan B  -  A Night March  -  The Skirmish
at the Stone Bridge  -  Chaos at Sudley Springs  -  The Struggle for Matthews Hill  -
Henry House Hill  -  'Stonewall'  Jackson  -  The Union Retreat  -  'The Picnic Battle'  -  Long Days Ahead


Battle Plans
The First Battle of Bull Run occurred on 21 July 1861 in Prince William County, Virginia, just thirty miles southwest of Washington, D.C. and just north of the city of Manassas. This was the first major battle of the American Civil War, and it was the largest and bloodiest battle in U.S. history up to that point. The Federals and Confederates had different preferences for naming battles; whereas the Confederacy tended to name battles after the town that served as their base, Union armies named battles after a landmark closest to their own lines, usually a river or a stream. In this case, the North referred to the battle as ‘Bull Run’ (after the stream by the same name), and that name has stuck since the North was eventually victorious and had the privilege of writing the history. The Confederates called this battle the Battle of Manassas, and the ‘First’ was tagged onto the name after another battle was fought in the same area in 1862.  

Just months after the fall of Fort Sumter near Charleston, South Carolina, the northern public clamored for a march against the Confederate capital of Richmond, Virginia. Capturing the Confederate capital, it was thought, would bring a decisive end to the Confederacy. The Union’s General-in-Chief, Winfield Scott, advocated caution; remembering the unprofessionalism of amateur troops during the War of 1812, he had reason to doubt the short-term enlisted soldiers were capable of a successful march and capture of Richmond. He suggested that the Union place a stranglehold on the Confederacy via a naval blockade and spend its time training up its new soldiers to proficiency before throwing them into the wolf’s lair. Scott’s so-called ‘Anaconda Plan’ would eventually be adopted, but in July of 1861, Lincoln felt it best to yield to public pressure: he ordered an advance into Virginia of Union troops under Brigadier General Irvin McDowell (pictured below and to the left). The Federals knew that the Confederates were camped nearby at Manassas Junction, where the Orange and Alexandria Railroad and the Manassas Gap Railroad met; the Confederates under P.T. Beauregard straddled the railroad, which was an artery connecting them with the Army of the Shenandoah. 

McDowell’s initial plan was to invade Virginia in three columns; with two columns he would make a diversionary attack on Beauregard while the third column moved southward around the Confederate left flank to cut the railroad to Richmond, preventing reinforcements from reaching Beauregard’s trapped army. He hoped to force Beauregard to abandon Manassas Junction and retreat to the Rappahannock River, which would relieve pressure off D.C. Meanwhile, Major General Robert Patterson’s 18,000 men were tasked with pinning down General Joseph Johnston’s Army of the Shenandoah so that they couldn’t reinforce Beauregard before the railroad was cut. Patterson seemed up to the task: on 2 July eight thousand of his men faced off against four thousand Confederates under Thomas Jackson at the Battle of Hoke’s Run. Jackson’s men put up a spirited defense, but the weight in numbers told, and they executed an organized retreat. The next day Patterson occupied Martinsburg and remained there for nearly two weeks. He was supposed to go to Winchester to keep Johnston’s forces pinned down, but instead he retreated to Harper’s Ferry; this freed up Johnston to be able to reinforce Beauregard at the coming battle. 

Unbeknownst to McDowell, Beauregard (pictured below to the right) knew what he was up to. The year before, U.S. Army captain Thomas Jordan created a pro-Southern spy network in D.C. He recruited Rose O’Neal Greenhow, a well-connected socialite. He provided her with a code for messages and gave her control of his network before leaving D.C. to throw in with the Confederacy. Jordan’s spy  network largely relied on southern belles riding fast horses, and Greenhow managed to evade Union pickets and deliver McDowell’s plans to Beauregard. Beauregard began preparing a defensive position along the Bull Run, a spring-fed muddy stream flowing southward through eastern Virginia. 


A Parade into Virginia
When the Union march began, it looked more like a holiday parade than an advance to war. Federal nurse S. Emma E. Edmonds remembered: ‘In gay spirits the army moved forward, the air resounding with the music of the regimental bands and patriotic songs of the soldiers. No gloomy forebodings seemed to damp the spirits of the men for a moment… “On to Richmond!” was echoed and re-echoed…’ The soldiers left D.C. carrying about fifty pounds of equipment. They marched in files with white-topped supply wagons and dark-hued ambulances keeping them company. Also keeping them company were scores of civilians; John G. Nicolay, private secretary to President Lincoln, remembered: ‘The business of war was such a novelty that McDowell’s army accumulated an extraordinary number of camp-followers and non-combatants. The vigilant newspapers of the chief cities sent a cloud of correspondents to chronicle the incidents of the march and conflict. The volunteer regiments carried with them… companionships unknown to regular armies… [S]enators and representatives… in several instances joined in what many rashly assumed would be a mere triumphal parade.’ The unseasoned troops moved in stops and starts; halts at the head of a column undulated accordionlike to the rear, where men got tired of standing for hours in the sun and wandered off to find water or fruit. Officers snapped at them to remain in their ranks, but they ignored them, set on procuring apples and blackberries. McDowell bitterly complained, ‘[The troops] stopped every moment to pick blackberries or get water; they would not keep in the ranks, order as much as you pleased. When they came where water was fresh, they would pour the old water out of their canteens and fill them with fresh water. They were not used to denying themselves much; they were not used to journeys on foot.’ Being unused to extensive marching, it isn’t surprising that it would take them three days to cover a distance that these same soldiers could cover in a day this time next year. They were also slowed down by having to clear trees felled into the road by southerners, and often the columns stopped to seek cover from hidden enemy artillery batteries that simply weren’t there. Imagination ran amuck. 

That first day McDowell’s troops reached the town of Fairfax, Virginia. Nurse Edmunds remembered: ‘Some built fires while others went in search of, and appropriated, every available article which might in any way add to the comfort of hungry and fatigued men. The whole neighborhood was ransacked for milk, butter, eggs, poultry, etc… There might have been heard some stray shots fired in the direction of a field where a drove of cattle were quietly grazing; and soon after the odor of fresh steak was issuing from every part of the camp.’ Such raiding was contrary to McDowell’s orders, along with episodic barn-burning and vandalization that further soured the southern occupants against their Union occupiers. In a strange incidence, several soldiers pilfered female clothing, dressed themselves, and strutted around town to the tune of laughter from their compatriots. Union journalist George Wilkes was offended when ‘a fellow passed by with a pair of ladies’ ruffled drawers hauled up over his pantaloons.’ Upon reaching the town of Centreville the next day, McDowell scouted Beauregard’s enemy lines to the west. He was irritated to find that Bueauregard was well-entrenched on the opposite bank of Bull Run, with his left anchored on a stone bridge spanning the stream. Beuregard had congregated the bulk of his forces around the bridge and other fords so that any Union advance across Bull Run would be met with withering fire. A disgruntled McDowell would have to come up with a different plan of attack, and he had his eye on the Confederate left. 


The Skirmish at Blackburn's Ford
The next day, 18 July, McDowell dispatched a division under Brigadier General Daniel Tyler to reconnoiter Beauregard’s right flank. Though his task was one of reconnaissance, he was dragged into a skirmish at Blackburn’s Ford on Bull Run. Tyler reached the ford at about eleven in the morning; the ford appeared shallow enough to ford, and it seemed that it was undefended; unbeknownst to him, Confederate Brigadier General James Longstreet had a brigade tucked into the woods just beyond the opposite bank. As Tyler continued spying out the woods across the stream, he was able to identify a few pieces of Confederate artillery. He ordered Union howitzers to fire on them. The howitzer did little, but there was no reply from the woods. Tyler, thinking it was only lightly defended, ordered five regiments – one Massachusetts regiment, three Michigan regiments, and a New York regiment – across the stream. The 1st Massachusetts led the way, and as they were pushing through the shallow stream, the woods on the opposite bank lit up with spouts of flame and acrid white smoke. Minie balls began whizzing through the air, splashing into the stream, cracking overhead, and for some unlucky soldiers, finding soft cushion in human flesh. Charles Carleton Coffin, a correspondent for the Boston Journal, was with Tyler in a peach orchard near a small house that overlooked the ford. He reported:
Suddenly there comes a volley from beneath the green foliage along the winding stream, and the air is thick with leaden rain. A white cloud rises above the trees, and a wild yell – not a cheer, not a hurrah, but more like the war whoop of the painted warrior of the Western plains – is heard above the din of battle. It was Longstreet’s brigade, delivering its first volley and sending out its first battle-cry.

Tyler ordered his artillery moved closer to the action, and at the same time the Confederate artillery that had survived the howitzer rounds began to open up (at Blackburn’s Ford alone, Tyler’s artillery would fire 415 cannon-balls, and the Confederate artillery would fire 310). A New York lieutenant, Joseph Favill, recounts the experience:
Suddenly a loud screeching noise overhead sent more than half the regiment pell mell to the other side of a fence that ran along the road side. Here we crouched down flat on our bellies, just as a shell exploded a little beyond us. It was from the rebel batteries in front, and the first any of us had ever heard, and it certainly did seem a terrible thing, rushing through the air like an immense sky rocket, then bursting into a thousand pieces, carrying death and destruction to everything in its course. 

Forced to concede that the Confederates had strong control of the opposite bank, Tyler ordered his men to retreat back across the ford. As they were falling back, Confederate reinforcements under Colonel Jubal A. Early arrived to reinforce Longstreet. The Confederate artillery kept the Federalists under fire as they retreated from the ford. General Beauregard recounts that many ‘were plainly seen to break and scatter [as] our parting shells were thrown among them.’ One of Tyler’s little-known brigade commanders, Colonel William Tecumseh Sherman, remembered how ‘for the first time in my life I saw cannon-balls strike men and crash through the trees and saplings above and around us.’ Tyler’s men suffered 83 casualties from the skirmish while the Confederates suffered 68. Tyler reported to McDowell that he couldn’t cross the stream, leaving McDowell with little choice to focus on the Confederate left flank. In the days after the skirmish, two New York soldiers would be awarded the Medal of Honor for their bravery at the ford, and both Longstreet and Early would claim that the skirmish ‘went a long way towards winning the victory [of First Manassas], for it gave our troops confidence in themselves.’ 


McDowell's Plan B
Tyler’s news from Blackburn’s Ford irritated McDowell, but it didn’t give him the same consternation as rumors that Confederate General Johnston (pictured to the right) had slipped past Patterson and was heading for Manassas to link up with Beauregard, bolstering the southern forces to 34,000 on paper. These rumors conflicted with his reports from Patterson, who insisted that Johnston was still tied down in Winchester; unfortunately for McDowell, the rumors were correct. That very morning, 18 July, just hours before the skirmish at Blackburn’s Ford, Johnston received a telegram suggesting he go to Beauregard’s aid. Johnston was able to oblige, as Patterson’s men were trekking towards Harper’s Ferry. That very afternoon Johnston began marching out of Winchester while Stuart’s cavalry screened Patterson’s men. In a twist of irony, an hour after Johnson departed Winchester, Patterson telegraphed Washington, D.C., ‘I have succeeded, in accordance with the wishes of the General-in-Chief, in keeping General Johnston’s force at Winchester.’ If the rumors were correct (and they were), that meant McDowell had to act fast; this compounded the pressure he felt due to the 90-day enlistments of many of his men set to expire (in the wake of Fort Sumter, Lincoln had issued a proclamation on 15 April for 75,000 men to serve for three months, and that expiration date was fast approaching). 

McDowell’s battle map captured the enemy placements: proceeding northwest from Blackburn’s Ford, the Bull Run crossings lay at Michell’s Ford, Island Ford, Ball’s Ford, Lewis Ford, the Stone Bridge, Poplar (or Farm) Ford, and Sudley Springs Ford. These fords, in particular the Stone Bridge, were heavily defended by Confederate forces. McDowell seized upon a plan to throw his weight against the Confederate left flank. Tyler, who had tangled with Longstreet at the ford, was tasked with leading his division across the stone bridge on the Confederate right flank. His mission was to keep the right flank occupied while two divisions under Brigadier Generals David Hunter and Samuel P. Heintzelman crossed the Bull Run to the northwest at Sudley Springs; from the Springs, these two Union divisions could outflank the Confederate left and march into the enemy’s rear. Though the plan was straightforward on paper, it required closely-timed synchronization of troop movements and attacks, and this was asking a lot of 90-day soldiers and militia with little training or experience. This plan also assumed that the camp rumors about Johnston were untrue and that Patterson’s telegraph to D.C. was accurate: Johnston, McDowell chose to believe, was still in Winchester. 


The Battle Begins
On 19-20 July, Johnston’s forces began reinforcing Beauregard. Johnston’s men had boarded trains at Piedmont Station and rode the tracks as fast as possible to Manassas Junction. This was the first time in history that troops had been transported to a battle by train. By the end of the 20th, most of Johnston’s men had reached the junction. Beauregard had been forming a plan in which the Confederates would surge across Blackburn’s Ford and push their way towards the Federals at Centreville. Johnston, as the senior officer between the two, approved the plan, and to this end he posted most of his Shenandoah men near Blackburn’s Ford. Thus both the Union and Confederacy, staring at each other across Virginia’s sluggish Bull Run, were planning attacks on each other; now it boiled down to which army made the first move, and that was McDowell’s.

In the early morning of 21 July, McDowell launched his attack: 12,000 men – the divisions of Hunter and Heintzelman – began the six-mile northwestern trek towards Sudley Springs that would, it was hoped, take them around the enemy’s left flank. At the same time Tyler’s division of 8,000 men left Centreville and aimed for the Stone Bridge. Having set off at 2:30A, in the dead of night long before the rising of the new day’s sun, the inexperienced troops almost immediately began fumbling. Tyler’s division blocked the advance of the flanking columns on the Warrenton Turnpike; when the flanking columns reached the roads that would take them to Sudley Springs, they discovered the ‘roads’ were just cart paths, making it difficult for the narrow files of soldiers to make good time, and even more difficult for the artillery and ambulances to make it from Point A to Point B without much cursing and struggling. As dawn began to break, Nurse Edmunds, accompanying ambulatory wagons towards Sudley Springs, remembered how ‘…column after column wounds its way over the green hills and through the hazy valleys, with the soft moonlight falling on the long lines of shining steel. Not a drum or bugle was heard during the march, and the deep silence was only broken by the rumbling of artillery, the muffled tread of infantry, or the low hum of thousands of subdued voices.’ New Yorker Edmund Clarence Stedman reflected, ‘The spirit of the soldiery was magnificent… There was glowing rivalry between the men of different states. “Old Massachusetts will not be ashamed of us tonight.” “Wait till the Ohio boys get at them.” “We’ll fight for New York today,” and a hundred similar utterances were shouted from the different ranks.’ 

Beauregard was eating breakfast at the Wilmer McLean house near Mitchell’s Ford when he heard the rumble of enemy artillery; moments later, a few rounds crashed through the house. A startled Beauregard realized the enemy was on the move, and he ordered demonstration attacks north towards the Union left at Centreville, hoping that this would blunt the Union advance until he could get a grasp of the situation.[1] Bungled orders and poor communications resulted in his subordinates receiving wrong information, no information, or mixed information, stunting the initial Confederate response. Meanwhile, Tyler’s men reached the Stone Bridge around six that morning, and the flanking divisions under Hunter and Heintzelman began fording Bull Run two miles upriver at an unguarded ford around 9:30A. 

All that stood in the path of the Federal flanking columns at Sudley Spring was South Carolinian Colonel Nathan ‘Shanks’ Evans and his brigade of 1100 men guarding the Confederate left flank. Evans had won the ‘Shanks’ moniker at West Point as a mocking reference to his spindly legs, and he was known for having an orderly follow him around with a keg of whiskey he’d nicknamed ‘barrelito.’ Hours earlier he had dispatched some of his men towards the Stone Bridge upon learning that the Federals were there. Virginian Private John Goode, posted at the Stone Bridge, recounted: ‘Before sunrise… great clouds of dust might be seen… plainly indicating that the enemy were advancing; and soon the roar of heavy artillery was heard; shot and shell came screaming like lost spirits through the air; and the advancing hosts were momentarily expected to appear.’ Tyler’s men didn’t press forward across the bridge, indicating to Beauregard that Tyler was simply demonstrating to keep the Confederates away from the main attack. This was confirmed when his signal officer E.P. Alexander, stationed eight miles southwest at the Wilcoxen Farm on Signal Hill, telegrammed his superior that he had seen the glint of cannon barrels and bayonets moving beyond the Confederate left flank (this was the first use of wig-wag semaphore signaling in combat). Alexander told Beauregard, ‘Look out for your left, your position is turned.’ Evans reacted immediately, leading 900 of his men away from the Stone Bridge and down farm lanes to a new location on a low rise to the northwest called Matthews Hill.

the Stone Bridge at Bull Run where Tyler's men were posted


The Struggle for Matthews Hill
Charles Coffin of the Boston Journal was placed with Tyler’s men. He reported: ‘Looking south you could see clouds of dust floating over the forest trees. The Rebels have discovered the movement and are marching in hot haste [from several points along the Bull Run line] to resist the impending attack… Rebel officers ride furiously and shout their orders. The artillerymen lash their horses to a run. The infantry are also upon the run, sweating and panting in the hot sunshine.’ Evans was the vanguard of the Confederate response, but he knew his paltry 900 men didn’t stand a chance holding Matthews Hill against the Federals who outnumbered his men by twelve. Evans’ task was to halt or at least slow down the Union flanking movement until more southern forces could be shuffled into action against them.

As the first Union infantry began marching towards the slopes of Matthews Hill, Evans ordered a brazen counterattack. The honor of this day’s first ‘hot action’ fell to Major Roberdeau Wheat’s 1st Louisiana Battalion, known as ‘Wheat’s Tigers.’ Wheat anchored his left flank on Matthews Hill, and his men launched multiple attacks against the approaching Federals. A few days after the battle, a wounded Wheat remembered the morning’s events:
Having reached [the right of the line of battle on Matthews Hill], I moved by the left flank to an open field, a wood being on my left. From this cover, to my utter surprise, I received a volley of musketry which unfortunately came from our own troops, mistaking us for the enemy, killing three and wounding several of my men. Apprehending instantly the real cause of the accident, I called out to my own men not to return the fire. Those near enough to hear, obeyed; the more distant, did not. Almost at the same moment, the enemy in front opened upon us with musketry, grape, canister, round shot and shells. I immediately charged upon the enemy and drove him from his position. As he rallied again in a few minutes, I charged him a second and a third time successfully.’ 

Such episodes of friendly fire were common this early in the war, for several reasons. First, most soldiers were inexperienced, and in the ‘fog of war’ an amateur could easily fire into his fellow soldiers. Second, uniforms had not been standardized; accurate depictions of the battle will show a variety of uniforms for both North and South. Third, both armies carried similar-looking flags: the Federals carried the United States’ ‘stars and stripes’ flag, and the Confederates carried their ‘Stars and Bars,’ eleven stars on a blue field set in the corner of a flag with two red and one white horizontal bars. In the fog of war, these bars could be mistaken one for the other. Beauregard noticed this, and it led him to design a new battle flag with white stars embedded in a blue St. Andres’ Cross on a red field. [See the image to the right: from top to bottom we have the 1861 'Stars and Stripes' for the Union, the 1861 'Stars and Bars' for the Confederacy, and the upcoming Confederate 'Battle Flags' with St. Andrews' Cross.]

Charles Coffin had relocated from the Stone Bridge and joined the flanking columns at nearby Sudley Springs. He reported, as if watching it in real-time, ‘The Union troops at Sudley Springs move across the stream. Burnside’s brigade is in advance. The Second Rhode Island infantry is thrown out, deployed as skirmishers. The men are five paces apart. They move slowly, cautiously, and nervously through the fields and thickets. Suddenly, from bushes, trees, and fences there is a rattle of musketry… Evans’s skirmishers are firing. There are jets of flame and smoke, and a strange humming in the air. There is another rattle, a roll, a volley. The cannon join.’ Nurse Edmunds recounted, ‘Now the battle began to rage with terrible fury. Nothing could be heard save the thunder of artillery [and] the continuous roar of musketry. Oh, what a scene for the bright sun of a holy Sabbath morning to shine upon!’ Evans continued:
Advancing from the wood with a portion of my command, I reached some haystacks under cover of which I was enabled to damage the enemy very much… I was put [out of] combat by a Minie ball passing through my body and inflicting what was at first thought to be a mortal wound… Being left without a field officer, the companies rallied under their respective captains and, as you are aware, bore themselves gallantly throughout the day in the face of an enemy far outnumbering us.’ 

Reinforcements under Brigadier General Bernard Bee and Colonel Francis S. Bartow arrived at Matthews Hill shortly after Evans was wounded, bringing the paper total of southern forces to 2800 men against the Federal flanking columns. Evans’ fierce Tigers were thankful for the support. Confederate artillery unlimbered and began to ply their trade into the advancing Federals. Union Colonel Henry Slocum, spying the enemy artillery, rallied his men: ‘Come on, boys! Let us silence that battery – come strike for your country and for your God!’ His New Yorkers surged upslope towards the Confederate guns. Private William Westervelt described the moment: ‘Here I saw the first man killed, who was marching just in front of me was struck with grape shot over the left eye. He gave an unearthly screech and leaping into the air, came down on his hands and knees, and straightened out dead.’ For nearly two hours, the Confederates on Matthews Hill blunted the Federal advance. Hunter’s lead Union brigade, led by General Ambrose Burnside, suffered mightily. Regiments from New York, Rhode Island, and New Hampshire slugged it out with regiments from South Carolina, Louisiana, Alabama, Georgia, and Mississippi. Heintzelman was later noted by Confederates as ‘a gray-haired man, sitting sideways on horseback’ who displayed ‘coolness and gallantry’ as he ‘directed the movements of each [Union] regiment as it came up the hill.’ This was in stark contrast to other parts of the battlefield, where inexperienced Union officers didn’t coordinate their assaults but sent them in piecemeal. One Union soldier frightfully remembered how, on the slopes of the hill, he was ‘in the very presence of death.’ Charles Coffin gaped at the scene, and he later wrote (again as if witnessing it in real time):  ‘Men fall. They are bleeding, torn, and mangled. The trees are splintered, crushed, and broken, as if smitten by thunderbolts. Twigs and leaves fall to the ground. There is smoke, dust, wild talking, shouting; hissings, howlings, explosions. It is a new, strange, unanticipated experience to the soldiers of both armies, far different from what they thought it would be.’ 

On a nearby hill between the Cub Run bridge and Centreville, journalists, reporters, well-to-do aristocratic statesmen, and curious civilians gathered to watch the fury on Matthews Hill from a safe distance. Howard Russell, a correspondent for the London Times (later dubbed ‘Bull Run Russell’) captured the scene: 
[The] sounds which came upon the breeze and the sights which met our eyes were in terrible variance with the tranquil character of the landscape. The woods far and near echoed to the roar of cannon; and thin, frayed lines of blue smoke marked the spots whence came the muttering sound of rolling musketry… Clouds of dust shifted and moved through the forest, and I could see the gleam of arms and the twinkling of bayonets. On the hill beside me there was a crowd of civilians on horseback and in all sorts of vehicles, with a few of the fairer, if not gentler, sex… The spectators were all excited, and a lady with an opera glass who was near me was quite beside herself when an unusually heavy discharge roused the current of her blood: “This is splendid! Oh, my! Is not that first-rate? I guess we will be in Richmond this time tomorrow.”

At  10A, as Wheat’s Tigers were entrenching on Matthews Hill and getting ready to blunt the Federal advance, one of Tyler’s brigade commanders at the Stone Bridge, a relatively unknown colonel by the name of William Tecumseh Sherman, pushed his men across Bull Run at the Poplar (or Farm) Ford to approach the enemy on Matthews Hill from behind. Sherman’s audacious surprise attack, coupled with the pressure of the Union weight of numbers advancing from Sudley Springs, buckled the Confederate line. With Federals to the front and rapidly approaching the rear, the Confederates had no viable option but to withdraw to a second line of defense. A battery of four six-pounder cannon covered Evans’, Bee’s, and Bartow’s retreat south from Matthews Hill. James Tinham of Massachusetts remembered the moment: ‘We fired a volley, and saw the Rebels running. Then we were ordered to lie down and load. We aimed at the puffs of smoke we saw rising in front and on the left of us. The men were all a good deal excited. Our rear rank had singed the hair of the front rank, who were more afraid of them than of the Rebels. The next thing I remember was the order to advance, which we did under a scattering fire.’ 

As they retreated, New York regiments continued the chase and engaged the retreating southerners in brief hand-to-hand combat at the ‘Stone House’ just south of the hill and lying on Young’s Branch, a little tributary of Bull Run. At the same time, Confederates under Wade Hampton’s ‘Hampton Legion’ and General Thomas Jackson’s Virginians engaged the Federals around the buildings of the James Robinson farmstead; while the Federals under General Erasmus Keyes pushed the Confederates up the slopes of a larger hill known as Henry Hill, they did not press their advantage and allowed the Confederates to retreat to a cluster of buildings atop the hill. New York Lieutenant William Thompson Lusk, who belonged to a New York regiment under Sherman, was elated at the enemy retreat but overawed at the death and destruction around Matthews Hill and the Stone House: 
From many a point not long since covered by secession forces, the American banner now floated. What wonder we felt our hearts swelling with pride, and saw, hardly noticing, horse and rider lying stiff, cold, and bloody together! What, though we stepped unthinking over the pale body of many a brave fellow still grasping convulsively his gun, with the shadows of Death closing around him! We were following the foe and dreaming only of victory.


The Struggle for Henry Hill
The Federals who had tangled with the retreating Confederates at the Stone House didn’t pursue them across Young’s Branch. The exhausted southerners ascended the slopes of Henry Hill to find a piece of rest before the battle continued. Both sides were determining what to do next, and as councils of war took place, the wounded were carried back to their respective rears. J.C. Nott, a Confederate doctor, remembered: ‘My heart failed me as I saw load after load of our poor wounded and dying soldiers brought and strewed on the ground along the ravine where I was at work. Dr. Fanthray, who belonged to General Johnston’s staff, and myself were just getting fully to work when an old surgeon, whom I do not know, came to us and ordered us to fall back to another point with the wounded, as the battle would soon be upon us.’ Union observer Edwin S. Barret noted that there was  ‘a continuous stream of wounded [being] carried past me to the rear. The soldiers would cross their muskets, place their wounded companions across, and slowly carry them past; another soldier would have a wounded man with his arm around his neck, slowly walking back; and then two men would be bearing a mortally wounded comrade in their arms, who was in convulsions and writing in his last agonies.’

Evans, Bee, and Bartow met with both Beauregard and Johnston atop Henry House Hill. Here were two old houses, one owned by a free black named James Robinson and the other by Mrs. Judith Henry (pictured here to the right). The Confederates stationed themselves at the ‘Henry House,’ for the Robinson homestead lie too close to the Federals at Bull Run. While the Union infantry took a breather at the bottom of Henry Hill, Union artillery began entrenching themselves on Dogan Hill to the northwest; here they would be able to fire into the Confederate masses. Brigadier Thomas Jackson, having extricated himself from Keyes at the Robinson House, joined the Confederate leadership gaggle along with Colonel J.E.B. Stuart and Wade Hampton’s ‘Hampton Legion’[2]. Meanwhile, Union batteries under commanders Ricketts and Griffin were ordered to support positions that exposed them to enemy fire. Coffin remembered that ‘[Captain] Ricketts does not like the order, but he is a soldier in the regular army and believes in obeying commands. The battery ascends the hill towards the Henry house and opens fire at close range. Griffin comes, with his horses upon the gallop [and] takes position to the left of Ricketts.’

As the Union batteries began moving into position, Sherman’s brigade began pushing against Henry Hill. Hampton’s Legion rushed forward to stunt his advance. Sherman’s 79th New York was decimated by the southern musketry and began to fall apart (it’s known that Hampton had purchased 400 Pattern 1853 Enfield rifles, but it’s unknown if his men had them for this battle; if they did, it would explain the decimation of the New Yorkers). At one point Wade Hampton gestured towards his enemy combatant James Cameron, Colonel of the 79th New York, and told his men, ‘Look at that brave officer trying to lead his men, and they won’t follow him.’ Cameron was the brother of Simon Cameron, the U.S. Secretary of War. Cameron suffered a fatal wound shortly after Hampton’s remark,  and it’s rumored that Hampton deliberately targeted officers of the 79th to avenge the death of his nephew earlier that day at the hands of New Yorkers (those offenders, however, belonged to the 69th New York, not the 79th). William Thompson Lusk of the 79th New York wrote to his mother of the approach to Henry House Hill:
What wonder we felt our hearts swelling with pride, and saw, hardly noticing, horse and rider lying stiff, cold and bloody together! What, though we stepped unthinking over the pale body of many a brave fellow still grasping convulsively his gun, with the shadows of Death closing around him! We were following the foe, I have said, and were dreaming only of victory. So we were marched to the edge of a slope which sheltered us partially from the aim of the enemy’s artillery. Here lying prostrate, shell after shell flew over our heads, or tore up the ground around. Now we could feel the hot breath of a cannon ball fan our cheeks; now we could see one fairly aimed, falling among our horses, and rolling them prostrate; and now again one of these messengers would come swift into the ranks of one of our columns, and without a thought or a groan, a soul was hurried into eternity.

As Hampton and Sherman were trading blows, Jackson placed his artillery just 300 yards from those of Ricketts and Griffin, and they immediately turned their fire on the limbered Union cannons that were moving to their new positions. Southern Captain John D. Imboden was ordered by Jackson to ride ‘from battery to battery’ to ensure that the guns were properly aimed and the fuses cut to the right length. He recounts:
This was the work of but a few minutes. On returning to the left of the line of guns, I stopped to ask General Jackson’s permission to rejoin my battery. [Jackson was astride his horse.] The fight was just then hot enough to make him feel well. His eyes fairly blazed. He had a way of throwing up his left hand with the open palm toward the person he was addressing. And as he told me to go, he made this gesture. The air was full of flying missiles, and he jerked down his hand, and I saw that blood was streaming from it. I exclaimed, “General, you are wounded!” He replied, as he drew a handkerchief from his breastpocket and began to bind it up, “Only a scratch – a mere scratch,” and galloped away along his line.’ 

Jackson later wrote: ‘Although under a heavy fire for several continuous hours, I received only one wound, the breaking of the longest finger of my left hand. My horse was wounded, but not killed.’ He ordered his men to dig in on the reverse slope of Henry Hill, where they were protected from direct fire. He placed thirteen cannon on the crest of the hill, and as the guns fired, their recoil pushed them downslope where they could be safely reloaded and pushed back into place. McDowell ordered his artillery on Dogan Hill to move to Matthews Hill. Soon enough eleven Union guns were dueling with Jackson’s thirteen. The smoothbore Confederate cannons had an advantage against the rifled Union cannons at such short range, as many Union rounds went well over the heads of their targets. Imboden recounted the duel:
More than half our horses had been killed. Those that we had were quickly divided among the guns and caissons, and we limbered up and fled. Then it was that the Henry House was riddled [for] our line of retreat was chosen so that the house would conceal us from Griffin’s battery, and, in a measure, shelter us from the dreaded fire of the infantry when they should reach the crest we had just abandoned. Several of Griffin’s shot passed through the house, scattering shingles, boards, and splinters all around us.

the Federal advance on Henry House Hill


The Union infantry advanced beneath the storm of crisscrossing cannonballs overhead, and the cordon began to tighten around the Henry Hill House. New Yorkers, Minnesotans, and the U.S. Marine Corps Battalion stormed uphill towards Jackson’s Virginians. His stalwart Virginians entrenched themselves and prepared to trade volleys. The weight of the Federals began to show, and Brigadier General Bee exclaimed to Jackson, ‘The enemy are driving us!’ Jackson coolly reported, ‘Then, sir, we will give the bayonet.’ According to legend, Bee exhorted his own troops to look to Jackson: ‘There is Jackson standing like a stone wall! Let us determine to die here, and we will conquer! Rally behind the Virginians!’ Bee’s exclamation is believed to be the source for Jackson’s (and his brigade’s) nickname: ‘Stonewall Jackson and his Stonewall Brigade.’ However, some are doubtful, and Bee never got a chance to clarify his intentions: shortly after rallying the troops, he was gut-shot and succumbed to his wounds the next day. It’s interesting that none of Bee’s contemporaries mentioned the exchange, and Major Burnett Rhett, Johnston’s Chief of Staff, alleged that Bee was furious with Jackson for failing to come to him, Evans’, and Bartow’s relief when they were retreating from Matthews Hill (Bartow died that afternoon from wounds sustained in battle). Per Rhett, one could argue – and many historians have! – that Bee’s exclamation was not one of star-struck awe but of sarcastic mockery: while he should’ve been moving to aid his fellow countrymen, here he was just standing still as stone! Whichever interpretation one takes, this reality is undeniable: Jackson’s brigade suffered more casualties than any other southern brigade this day. 

Thomas Jackson leading his Virginians


As the Federals tightened the noose around the hill, the fighting became vicious and close-quarter. Charles Coffin recounts: ‘There is not much order. Regiments are scattered. The lines are not even. There are a great many stragglers on both sides… The artillery crashes louder than before. There is a continuous rattle of musketry. There are desperate hand-to-hand encounters. Hundreds fall, and other hundreds leave the ranks.’ The Union observer Edwin S. Barrett, sitting among the upper branches of a persimmon tree, had an eagle’s-eye view of the battlefield as the Union lines closed with those of the Confederacy:
I had an unobstructed view of the whole line, and I could see into the enemy’s intrenchments, where the men looked like so many bees in a hive; and I could plainly see their officers riding about, and their different columns moving hither and thither. Their batteries on the right and left were masked with trees so completely that I could not distinguish them except by the flash from their guns. The valley in front of the enemy’s works was filled with our infantry, extending to some patches of woods on our right. Our batteries were placed on various eminences on the flank and rear, shifting their positions from time to time. The fire from our lines in this valley was terrific, and as they kept slowly advancing, firing, retreating to load, and then advancing again, it was a sight which no words could describe.

Union Captain Griffin moved two of his guns to the southern end of the Federal line with the hope of providing enfilading fire against the enemy. At around 3P, Jackson’s 33rd Virginian advanced on the guns. Jackson’s men wore blue uniforms, which were common with the Federals, so that Griffin’s commander believed them to be Union troops and ordered Griffin not to fire on them. Thus the guns remained silent as the Federals approached. The cannoneers suffered momentary confusion as they watched the approaching blue-coated soldiers form into a battle line. A member of Griffin’s battery captures the moment the confusion passed: ‘[There] came a tremendous explosion of musketry, and all was confusion. Wounded men were clinging to caissons, to which were attached frightened and wounded horses. I saw three horses galloping off, dragging a fourth, which was dead. The dead cannoneers lay with the rammers, sponges, and lanyards still in their hands. The battery was annihilated by those volleys in a moment.’ Many of the New York ‘Fire Zouaves’ supporting Griffin’s battery were slain along with several gunners. The stunned Federals were preparing to counterstrike when J.E.B. Stuart’s saber-wielding cavalry arrived onto the scene and pushed themselves into the battery, slashing and cutting and generally sowing chaos. William Lusk of the 79th New York remembered the scene:
After about an hour in this trying position, we were called up and turned into the road, where Death began to make sad havoc in our ranks. Surely aimed, the shot of the enemy fell among us. We could not see the foe, and then it was terrible to see our own boys, whose faces we knew, and whose hands we had pressed, falling in Death agony. We heard, while marching stealthily, a great shout, and looking we saw a hill before us, covered with the Ellsworth Zouaves. A moment more, and from the top of the hill, from unseen hands blazed a terrible discharge of arms. It was one of those masked batteries, which have so often brought us misfortune. Bravely fought the Zouaves, but they had to fall back from that hellish fire. Other Regiments made the charge but only to be repulsed with ranks thinned and broken. At length our turn came. Up we rushed—our brave Colonel with us. The first fire swept our ranks like a quick darting pestilence. “Rally, boys—Rally!” shouted the officers, and a brave rally was made. Our men stood firmly firing, answering volley by volley. Here we felt the worthlessness of our old Harper’s Ferry muskets, when matched against the rifles of the enemy.

Jackson’s men captured Griffin’s guns, but a Federal counterattack pushed them back. The Federals recaptured their guns, much to the dismay of the Confederates. Beauregard, fearing that their demoralization would sap their strength and resolve, ‘rode up and down [the] lines, between the enemy and his own men, regardless of the heavy fire, cheering and encouraging [the] troops’ (per the Richmond Dispatch). Beauregard launched a counter-attack with Jackson’s brigade in the center. They recaptured the guns, and Beauregard remembered how ‘Jackson’s brigade pierced the enemy’s center with the determination of veterans and the spirit of men who fight for a sacred cause; but it suffered seriously. With equal spirit the other parts of the line made the onset, and the Federal lines were broken and swept back at all points from the open ground of the plateau. Rallying soon, however, the Federalists returned, and by weight of numbers pressed our lines back, recovered their ground and guns, and renewed the offensive.’ Beauregard then ‘ordered forward the whole line, which, at this crisis of the battle, I felt called upon to lead in person. The whole open ground was again swept clear of the enemy, and the plateau around the Henry and Robinson houses remained finally in our possession, with the greater part of the Ricketts and Griffin batteries and a flag of the 1st Michigan regiment, captured by Jackson’s brigade.’ 

This penultimate fighting on Henry House Hill was brutal and often hand-to-hand. It was during this struggle that Jackson told soldiers of the 4th Virginia Infantry, ‘Reserve your fire until they come within fifty yards! Then fire and give them the bayonet! And when you charge, yell like furies!’ This is one of the first times that Union troops heard the disturbing ‘Rebel Yell,’ here described by a northern soldier: ‘There is nothing like [the rebel yell] on this side of the infernal region. The peculiar corkscrew sensation that it sends down your backbone under these circumstances can never be told. You have to feel it.’ A Virginian noted of this fighting around the Henry House that ‘The shouts of the combatants, the groans of the wounded and dying and the explosion of shells made a complete pandemonium…the atmosphere was black with the smoke of the battle.’ A Wisconsin soldier told of how the bodies were stacked in a roadway ditch: ‘The poor fellows had crowded in and crawled one upon another, filling the ditch in some places three or four deep…I will not sicken you with a description of the road.’ William Lusk captured the moment the Federals broke under the weight of the Confederates:
Tall men were mowed down about me. Wounded men begged their comrades to press on, and not to risk anything by lingering near them. We were only some twenty yards from a battery, belching forth a thick heavy hail of grape and canister, shell and fire of musketry. With unerring accuracy the enemy’s riflemen singled out our officers and mighty men. Suddenly we saw the American flag waving over the battery. “Cease firing” was the order given, and for a short moment we believed the battery was ours. It was the enemy though that had raised the flag to deceive us. As we lowered our arms, and were about to rally where the banner floated, we were met by a terrible raking fire, against which we could only stagger. “By the Lord, but I believe them coons’s too cunning for us!” cried an old soldier near me. We halted, fell bac k, and the hillside was left to such only as lingered to bear away their wounded comrades. As we passed down we saw our Colonel lying still, in the hands of Death. He had fallen bravely, breast to the foe, not wishing to cherish his own life, while the lives of his men were imperiled. Over the sad disheartening retreat let us not linger—let it be covered by the darkness of the night which followed.

The Union Retreat
The seesaw fighting on Henry Hill ended with the Confederates retaining hold of the hill as the Federals retreated downslope towards Young’s Branch. To the southwest of Henry Hill, Union Colonel Oliver O. Howard hoped to gain a toehold on a prominence known as Chinn Ridge. McDowell hoped this toehold could be a launching point to push forces around the Confederate left flank. However, Howard was opposed by two just-arriving brigades from the Shenandoah, one led by Colonel Jubal Early and the other by Brigadier General Kirby Smith. These forces were well-rested and itching for a fight, and as they charged Howard on Chinn Ridge, Howard realized his winded and beleaguered troops wouldn’t be able to stand against them. Beauregard, seeing the Federals falling back from Chinn Ridge and Henry Hill, ordered the entire Confederate line forward. As the southerners gave a rebel yell and surged downslope after the retreating enemy, the Federals – exhausted from marching or fighting for fourteen hours, hungry and thirsty on a brutally hot and humid July day, and many whose three-month enlistments were about to expire – completely broke. In large and small groups, and as individuals, unit integrity disintegrated as they began fleeing east towards the Union camp at Centreville. 

McDowell rode around the field and tried to rally the soldiers, but most had had enough. McDowell could read the writing on the wall: the day was over, and the Union had lost. Hoping to salvage something from the debacle, he ordered Colonel Andrew Porter’s regular U.S. Infantry (not militia or volunteers) to hold the intersection at the Warrenton Turnpike and the Manassas-Sudley Road as a rearguard. Porter remembered how ‘the slopes were swarming with our retreating and disorganized forces, while riderless horses and artillery teams ran furiously through the flying crowd. All further efforts were futile. The words, gestures, and threats of our officers were thrown away upon men who had lost all presence of mind, and only longed for absence of body.’ Another body of men under Union Major George Sikes positioned themselves at a critical ridge close to the Stone Bridge. His battalion formed a square and defended the ridge against Confederate infantry and cavalry until all the fleeing Federals had crossed the bridge. Sykes’ battalion then crossed the bridge in good order. Days later, when President Lincoln reviewed the Federal troops at D.C., an army commander pointed out the battalion and said to Lincoln, ‘These are the men who saved your army.’ Lincoln coolly replied, ‘Yes, I have heard of them.’

The holding actions of both Porter and Sykes are the gems of the Union retreat; whereas their actions prompted honor and gratitude, the rest of the army was an embarrassment – and there was no hiding it. First Bull Run has also been called the ‘Picnic Battle’ because the wealthy elite of D.C., including statesmen and their families (among them children), had come to picnic and watch the battle from a distance. They anticipated an easy victory, and they intended to celebrate with picnic baskets and opera glasses. Captain John Tidball wrote:
They came in all manner of ways, some in stylish carriages, others in city hacks, and still others in buggies, on horseback and even on foot. Apparently, everything in the shape of vehicles in and around Washington had been pressed into service for the occasion. It was Sunday and everybody seemed to have taken a general holiday; that is all the male population, for I saw none of the other sex there, except a few huckster women who had driven out in carts loaded with pies and other edibles. All manner of people were represented in this crowd, from the gravest and noble senators to hotel waiters.



When the Federals were forced to retreat, the roads became blocked by panicked civilians attempting to flee in their gilded carriages. One congressman noted that ‘the further [the Union soldiers ran], the more frightened they grew.’ A correspondent for the New York Tribune wrote, ‘All sense of manhood seemed to be forgotten. Even the sentiment of shame had gone. Every impediment to flight was cast aside. Rifles, bayonets, pistols, haversacks, cartridge-boxes, canteens, blankets, belts, and overcoats littered the road.’ One bridge was made impassable by overturned wagons; Colonel Burnside recounted, ‘Upon the bridge crossing Cub Run a shot took effect upon the horses of a team that was crossing. The wagon was overturned directly in the center of the bridge, and the passage was completely obstructed. The enemy continued to play his artillery upon the carriages, ambulances, and artillery wagons that filled the road, and these were reduced to ruin. The infantry, as the files reached the bridge, were furiously pelted with a shower of grape and other shot, and several persons were here killed or dangerously wounded.’ Edmund Stedman of the New York World wrote, ‘Horses, many of them in death agony [from battlefield wounds], galloped at random forward. Those on foot who could catch them rode them bareback, as much to save themselves from being run over as to make quicker time. Wounded men lying along the banks appealed with raised hands to those who rode horses, but few regarded such petitions.’ A Confederate shell destroyed Senator Henry Wilson’s buggy, and he had to mount a mule to escape. Iowa Senator James Grimes was nearly captured and vowed never to go near a battlefield again; New York representative Alfred Ely was not so fortunate: he was captured as a prisoner of war and sent to Richmond.Michigan senator Zachariah Chandler tried to stem the Union retreat by blocking the road, but he was bodily shoved out of the way. Senator Ben Wade of Ohio picked up a discarded rifle and threatened to shoot any soldier who ran. He remembered:
We called to them, tried to tell them there was no danger, called them to stop, implored them to stand. We called them cowards, denounced them in the most offensive terms, put out our heavy revolvers, and threatened to shoot them, but all in van; a cruel, crazy, mad, hopeless panic possessed them, and communicated to everybody about in front and rear. The heat was awful, although now about six; the men were exhausted – their mouths gaped, their lips cracked and blackened with the powder of the cartridges they had bitten off in battle, their eyes starting in frenzy; no mortal ever saw such a mass of ghastly wretches.

The pell-mell retreat became known as ‘The Great Skedaddle’ in the southern press. Confederate President Jefferson Davis arrived at the battlefield just as the Federals were fleeing east. He had chartered a special train, obtained a horse near Manassas, and rode with an aide that afternoon towards the battle. Pushing through a flood of wounded southerners, he was exhorted to go back; ‘We’re whipped!’ he was told. Davis pushed on, knowing that the rear of a battlefield – with its stragglers, its cowards, its dead and its maimed – was the same for both victors and losers. Once Davis found Johnston, Johnston was elated with news of the triumph. Davis urged him to send his men after the fleeing northerners, but Johnston didn’t think his men had it in him; he later justified this, saying, ‘Our army was more disorganized by victory than that of the United States by defeat.’ In D.C., Lincoln and his cabinet received a telegram stating ‘General McDowell’s army in full retreat through Centreville. The day is lost. Save Washington and the remnants of the army.’ Happier tidings reached Richmond; Davis telegraphed, ‘We have won a glorious but dear-bought victory. Night closed on the enemy in full flight and closely pursued.’ This last bit was propaganda, as the Confederates did not chase their enemy out of Virginia. [3 and 4]


Postscript
By midnight in D.C., officers and civilians who had been fortunate enough to find horses began arriving in the city. Presidential Secretary John Nicolay recounted: ‘It was a gloomy night, but yet gloomier days followed. Next day, Monday, the rain commenced falling… Through this rain the disbanded soldiers began to pour into Washington City, fagged out, hungry, and dejected, and having literally nowhere to turn their feet or lay their head.’ He added: ‘History owes a page of honorable mention to the Federal capital on this occasion. The rich and poor, the high and low of her loyal people, opened their doors and dealt out food and refreshments to the footsore, haggard, and half-starved men so unexpectedly reduced to tramps and fugitives.’ The same day that the Federals were routed from the battlefield, the U.S. House of Representatives, in a special session, unanimously passed the following resolution:
Resolved, That the maintenance of the Constitution, the preservation of the Union, and the enforcement of the laws, are sacred trusts which must be executed; that no disaster shall discourage us from the most ample performance of this high duty; and that we pledge to the country and the world the employment of every resource, national and individual, for the suppression, overthrow, and punishment of rebels in arms.

Despite the bombastic pledge to overthrow ‘rebels in arms,’ panic gripped the capital. 14,000 Confederate forces were just thirty miles away, and little stood to oppose them. On 24 July Professor Thaddeus S.C. Lowe took up his hot air balloon Enterprise to see what the Confederates were up to. The Enterprise was built with Indian silk, lightweight cording, and Lowe’s patent varnish (a secret recipe) which could keep the balloon envelope gassed up for as long as two weeks. In his first flight, as he tried to land in the Union encampment, he was rebuffed by Union soldiers (he didn’t have any military insignia on the balloon, and they didn’t know if he was friend or foe); Lowe was forced to land his balloon behind enemy lines. Fortunately, he was rescued overnight before the enemy could find him. The Enterprise was badly damaged, but his exploits were impressive enough that he was given the green light to build a proper balloon. The Union was delighted to hear that it did not appear as if the Confederates were planning an attack. 

The battle at Bull Run convinced both sides that the war would be longer and costlier than originally thought. On 22 July, the day after the battle, Lincoln signed a bill that funded the enlistment of another 500,000 men for up to three years of service; three days later 11,000 Pennsylvanians who had been rejected for federal service were gladly accepted. The U.S. Joint Committee on the Conduct of the War was a congressional body created to investigate northern military affairs, and it was created in the wake of the battle. Though the Committee concluded that the Union defeat was best attributed to Patterson failing to keep Johnston bottled up in Winchester, Patterson’s enlistment had expired, and there was nothing that could be done to him. The people needed a scapegoat, and McDowell was it: he was relieved of his command three days after the battle, on 25 July, and replaced by George B. McClellan, who would soon be named General-in-Chief of all Union armies. The demoted McDowell remained in the army, and in an unfortunate twist of irony, he would bear significant blame for the Union defeat by General Robert E. Lee at the Second Battle of Manassas on 28-30 August 1862. McDowell has gotten a bad rap for his defeat, but at the end of the day, his plan was a good one, and the actions he took during the battle were wise; his defeat had more to do with ill-trained and undisciplined troops coupled with bad luck. 



[1] The Wilmer McLean house sat on Wilmer McLean’s farm near Manassas, Virginia. Following the battle he would relocate to the southwest at Appomatox. In a fun twist of fate, the first major land engagement of the Civil War began with cannon-balls through his first home, and in 1865 the war ended when Confederate General Robert E. Lee surrendered to Union General U.S. Grant in the parlor of his second home. The war ‘started and ended’ on his threshold. 

[2] The Hampton Legion was a brigade of infantry, cavalry, and artillery organized and partially financed by the wealthy South Carolina planter Wade Hampton III. 

[3] The Union forces were commanded by Irvin McDowell, and the forces consisted of the U.S. Army of Northern Virginia and U.S.  Marines. McDowell’s forces numbered 35,700 on paper, but only 18,000 were engaged. His army was organized into five infantry divisions of 3-5 brigades each; each brigade consisted of 3-5 infantry regiments, and each brigade was generally assigned an artillery battle. The Federals suffered 2708 casualties: 481 killed, 1011 wounded, and 1216 missing. 

[4] The Confederate forces were commanded by Joseph E. Johnston and P.G.T. Beauregard. Johnston commanded the Army of the Shenandoah, and Beauregard commanded the Army of the Potomac; between the two, Johnston was the superior officer. The Confederate forces numbered between 32,000 and 34,000 on paper, but only 18,000 were engaged. Johnston’s Army of the Shenandoah was organized into four brigades, and each brigade consisted of 3-5 regiments and an artillery battery. J.E.B. Stuart’s cavalry numbered 300 men and had twenty pieces of artillery. Beauregard’s Army of the Potomac was organized into seven infantry brigade, and each brigade consisted of 3-6 infantry regiments. Artillery batteries were attached to select brigades. The Confederates suffered far fewer casualties than the attacking Federals: total casualties amount to 1982, with 387 killed, 1582 wounded, and 13 missing. 

Wednesday, January 28, 2026

The Mortification of Sin: Potent Quotables

Potent Quotables from Aaron Renn's remastering of John Owen's classic The Mortification of Sin into modern English.


CHAPTER ONE
The body [of sin] is the corruption and depravity of our nature of which our physical body is to a great extent the seat and the means by which sin expresses itself... Indwelling sin is compared to a person, a living person, called the "old self," with his abilities, attributes, wisdom, skill, subtlety, and strength. This, Paul says, must be killed – put to death – that is, to have the power, life force, vigor and strength it needs to produce its effects destroyed and taken away by the Holy Spirit.

Sin has already been killed meritoriously and by example when Christ died on the cross. That is, its ability to condemn us has been killed, and our sin and old nature have been nailed to the Cross. Hence in Romans 6 our “old self” is said to be “crucified with Christ” (v6) and we are said to have “died with Christ” (v8). When we believe in Christ and are regenerated (see vv3-5) a power opposed to sin and destructive to it is also put in our hearts (see Galatians 5:17). But the work of this sin-opposing power is not complete at the time of our conversion because of the indwelling sin that remains in us. It needs to be carried on towards perfection our entire lives.

The term “life” means eternal life, but also more than that. It means spiritual life in Christ today. That is, we get not just life in its ultimate eternal form, which we already have completely because of the finished work of Christ, but also the present reality of joy, comfort, and strength coming from it. Or as Paul says in 1 Thessalonians 3:8, “now we live, if you are standing fast in the Lord” – meaning “Now my life will do me good. I’ll have joy and comfort with my life” or “You will lead a strong, comfortable spiritual life while you are here and get eternal life in the hereafter.”



CHAPTER TWO
Sin is like the grave – it is never satisfied. And here is where a big part of the deceitfulness of sin lies, and how it ends up hardening people until they are lost (see Hebrews 3:13). Sin starts off small in its first temptations and activity, but once it gains a foothold in someone it constantly presses further onward to increasing degrees of depravity. This incremental growth in the severity of sin doesn’t often attract our attention and we don’t realize how much of an opening we’ve given it to make us fall away from God. We are satisfied and think we’ve done our duty if we simply keep sin from going any further – and this is how it hardens us. But sin is always pressing forward. It has no boundary it is willing to respect but constantly strives to make us completely turn our backs on God and actively oppose Him. The fact that it does this slowly, by degrees as it were, doesn’t result from sin actually being weak or slow-acting, but simply from how deceitfully it behaves towards us.

When grace is unused, it withers and decays. The fruit it produces is ready to die (see Revelation 3:2) and sin gains ground in its hardening of the heart (see Hebrews 3:13). In short, by not doing our duty grace withers, evil desires flourish, the condition of the heart grows worse and worse, and only God knows what awful and terrible results this has produced in so many people.

It is our duty to be “bringing holiness to completion in the fear of God” (2 Corinthians 7:1), to be “growing in the grace” every day (see 2 Peter 3:18 and 1 Peter 2:3), and to be sure that “our inner self is being renewed day by day” (2 Corinthians 4:16). This simply can’t be done without the daily putting to death of sin.

Sin works with all its strength against every act of holiness and against every degree of spiritual perfection we work towards. Nobody should think that he will make any progress in holiness and maturity if he does not walk over the belly of his sin and evil desires. No one who does not kill sin along the way will make any progress towards this destination. Anyone who isn’t feeling himself opposed and oppressed by sin, and who isn’t doing everything possible to kill it, is someone who is at peace with sin, not dying to it.7

Let a person pretend to himself that he doesn’t often think about committing sins, at least not on a daily basis. The root of a life like this, one lived without putting to death sin, is the ability to take in and digest sin without bitterness in the heart. When a person imagines that he is so in tune with God’s grace that he’s able to contemplate and commit sins daily without that bitterness, he’s at the very brink of turning the grace of God into a license to sin, and of being hardened by the deceitfulness of sin. And there’s no greater evidence of a false and rotten heart than that.

Each and every sin we commit has been meritoriously killed on the cross of Christ so that we are now justified and no longer condemned by them. A foundation of putting to death sin was laid in us at our conversion, namely being convicted of our sin and humbled by our sin, resulting in repentance and the implanting in us of the Spirit and a new nature opposed to sin and destructive to it. Nevertheless, indwelling sin remains in us and is acting and working in even the strongest and most mature of believers while they live in this world. Therefore the constant, daily killing of that sin is a critical duty for all believers as long as they are in this world.



CHAPTER FOUR
Sin weakens the soul and takes away its strength. When David had for a while harbored an unkilled evil desire in his heart, it broke all his bones and left him with no spiritual strength. He complained that he was sick, weak, wounded, and faint. “There is,” he said, “no soundness in my flesh” (Psalm 38:3) and “I am feeble and crushed” (Psalm 38:8) and “my iniquities have overtaken me and I cannot see” (Psalm 40:12). An unkilled evil desire will drink up the energy and all the strength in the soul, weakening it in carrying out all its duties.

Sin diverts the heart from the spiritual state that is required for close fellowship with God. It grabs hold of the heart, making the object of sin desirable and beloved, and so expels the love of the Father (see 1 John 2:15 and 3:17). So now the soul can’t honestly say to God, “You are what I want” because it has something else that it loves more than God. Fear, desire, and hope, which are the most important feelings of the soul, and ones that should be full of God, instead end up entangled with sin.

Every un-killed sin will certainly do two things: it will weaken the soul and take away its strength, and it will darken the soul and take away its peace and comfort.

Just like it weakens, sin also darkens the soul. It is like a thick black cloud that spreads itself over the face of the soul and blocks all the rays of God’s love and favor. It takes away any sense of our adoption as sons of God.

It’s true that they remain in the heart even when we partially neglect our duty to kill sin. But they are ready to die (see Revelation 3:2). They are withering and decaying. The heart ends up like a lazy farmer’s field – it’s so overgrown with weeds you can barely see the wheat. Someone like that may search for faith, love, and zeal for God, and yet hardly be able to find any. And even if he does, they are so weak and so clogged up with evil desires that they don’t do him much good. But let his heart be cleansed by the killing of sin, the weeds of his evil desires rooted up every day – and this has to be done daily since they grow again new each day due to the nature of sin – let room be made in the heart for grace to thrive, and watch how every grace will respond and be ready to be used for the purpose God intended for it. 



CHAPTER SIX
Every evil desire is a depraved habit or tendency that makes the heart incline toward doing evil. The Bible tells us what a person looks like when he hasn’t killed any of his evil desires, saying that “every intention of the thoughts of his heart was only evil continually” (Genesis 6:5). Such a person is always under the power of a strong bent and inclination to sin. And the only reason why he isn’t always chasing after some evil desire day and night is that he has so many of them that they are competing for his attention. So instead of just one he probably has a wide variety of evil desires, but all of them are ultimately about satisfying the self. Let’s suppose then that the evil desire we are trying to understand how to kill is a strong, deeply rooted, habitual inclination and bent of will and feelings towards an actual sin. It is always stirring up thoughts, fantasies, and schemes about its object. Such people have their hearts “fully set to do evil” (Ecclesiastes 8:11). The inclination of their spirit toward it is to make “provision for the flesh” (Romans 13:14).

Where [physical and moral habits] motivate us gently in a healthy way, sinful habits drive us with violence and impulsiveness. That’s why evil desires are said to “wage war against your soul” (1 Peter 2:11). They rebel or rise up in war against what is right. They lead people captive as if they had achieved victory in war (see Romans 7:23). This shows sin’s violent, impulsive nature... [The] first step in killing sin is to weaken the habit of any evil desire so that it won’t – with that violence, seriousness, and frequency – rise up, germinate, cause trouble, provoke, entice, or upset us as naturally as it would normally (see James 1:14-15).

[Sinful desires] will darken the mind, extinguish the fires of conviction, drive us to illogical decisions, undermine the power or influence of anything that might act against them, and burst out in us like an eruption or explosion.

Some sins and evil desires are more obvious in their bad effects than others. Paul distinguishes between sexual sin and all others, saying “Flee from sexual immorality. Every other sin a person commits is outside the body, but the sexually immoral person sins against his own body.” (1 Corinthians 6:18). That sin and its effects are more easily discernable than other sins. It may be, for example, that the love of the world is in someone no less than sexual lust is, but it’s not as obvious and doesn’t seem to affect people as much on the outside. Because of this some people might go through life thinking that they’ve properly killed their sin, and be highly regarded by others for being exceptionally moral when the reality is that they are just as full of evil desires as others who are held up as awful sinners. It just so happens that that their evil desires don’t result in publicly scandalous sins but rather in more subtle sins committed in a more calm state of mind that doesn’t seem out of control.

[The] first thing then in killing sin is weakening the habit so that it doesn’t: Propel us to evil and attack us as much as it used to, Seduce us and draw us away from God, and Divert us from the program of killing it The Bible calls this “crucifying the flesh with its passions and desires” (Galatians 5:24). It is draining the blood from sin and taking away what gives it its strength and power, causing the old self to waste away day by day (see 2 Corinthians 4:16).

[When] someone first sets himself against an evil desire to deal with it, it tries with great violence to break loose. It cries out with eagerness and impatience to be released. But when through the killing process the blood and spirits of it are drained away, it moves less often and more faintly, it barely cries out, and is barely heard from in the heart again. It may sometimes have a last dying gasp with an appearance of great power and strength, but it’s quickly over, especially if that last desperate struggle is kept from getting any success.

Whatever the evil desire may be or however it manifests itself – whether by actively propelling us into sinful actions or hindering us in doing what is good – unless we crucify it effectively nothing else we do after the fact will do any good. We can destroy the bitter fruit from an evil tree all day long, but as long as the root remains healthy and untouched, dealing with the fruit will not stop the tree from continuing to bear more, more, more. This is the foolish approach a lot of people take. They eagerly and diligently try to keep from performing sinful actions, but they leave the root of the underlying evil desires untouched – maybe not even looked for – and they don’t make any progress at all in actually killing their sin.

[When] a person sees sin at any time at work in his heart, seducing him, spurring him on to fantasies and plans for making provision for the flesh and fulfilling its evil desires, he instantly knows he has a problem. He then brings it to the law of God and the love of Christ, condemns the sin, and follows up with every ounce of effort he has to kill it. When a person is able to get to this place, that sin is weakened in its root. Its movement and actions are fewer and weaker than they used to be so that it can’t interfere with the performance of his duties or with his peace of mind. When he can, in a calm and deliberate way, seek out and fight against sin in his life, then it has been killed in him to a great extent. Thought it may not be totally eradicated, a man like that can have peace with God his whole life.

[The] believer struggling to overcome a powerful indwelling sin, there are three main things he should want to accomplish: 1. The weakening of that sin’s power to tempt and propel him to perform evil and rebel against God. This is done by implanting and cultivating a power of grace that is opposed to sin and destructive of it. This is the foundation of weakening sin. So implanting and growing in humility weakens pride. Patience weakens impulsiveness. Purity of mind and conscience weaken sexual sin. Heavenly mindedness weakens the love of this world. These are the graces of the Spirit, empowered and directed by the Spirit, acting on or towards the same objects that evil desires also try to act, only in an opposite and holy direction.



CHAPTER SEVEN
An unsaved, un-regenerated unbeliever might do something that looks like killing sin, but the thing he’s done can never be acceptable to God. Think about, for example, the many encouragements and techniques for moral living found in the ancient philosophers – people like Seneca, Cicero, and Epictetus, for example. They wrote impressive letters and books talking about their contempt for the world and for self and about how to control and conquer human passions and impulses. They are still studied in colleges all over the world. But the actual lives they lived were as different from that of a Christian engaged in the genuine pursuit of killing sin as the painting of the sun is from the actual sun itself blazing in the sky. They may have written beautiful words, but they couldn’t generate any actual heat or light.

Many unsaved people are bitter and bothered about their sin. They may even be under conviction about it because they’ve heard the word of God preached to them. They may be suffering in life because of the consequences of their sin. Many of them decide to do something about that by making a vigorous attempt to stop the bad behavior that’s been causing them so many problems. But they are working inside of a fire, and that fire is burning up everything they try to do.

[This] is the usual progression of people who try to kill sin and modify their behavior without believing in Christ first. They are deluded, then they are hardened, then they are destroyed.

Because of the wisdom, goodness, and love of God, He uses various ways and means of keeping sin in check even in unbelievers. If not for this form of common grace, the world really would be entirely lawless and evil. However He manages to accomplish this, it’s a testament to the care, kindness, and goodness of God without which we would be living in a hell on earth.

There is a particular convicting power in the word of God that He sometimes uses to wound or otherwise humble sinners, but which does not lead to their conversion. We are supposed to proclaim the word of God with the goal of converting people, but it does not always result in this effect. Sometimes it falls short even though it has a convicting effect. When we proclaim the word boldly some people will be called out on their sins in a way that results in them being restrained in some way, even thought that’s not really our goal, which is actually to bring them to faith in Christ.



CHAPTER EIGHT
If you are trying with all your might to kill a sin or evil desire, why? It’s causing you anxiety, it makes you afraid, you know it has bad consequences, and you don’t feel like you have peace with God about it. But maybe you aren’t praying and reading your Bible. Or maybe you’ve been committing other sins that aren’t quite causing you as much personal trouble, but haven’t done anything to kill them. Christ died for all these too. Why aren’t you being diligent in killing all of your sin and carrying out all the duties you’ve been assigned? If you hate sin as sin then you would be just as aggressive about trying to stamp out all of it in your life. The fact that you are so selective in the particular sins you strive to defeat says plainly that the reason is because they are the only ones that are causing you pain and trouble. If they weren’t, you probably wouldn’t be worried about them either.

Paul says, “Let us cleanse ourselves from every defilement of body and spirit” (2 Corinthians 7:1). If we want to do anything, we have to do everything. So killing sin doesn’t just come down to killing this or that evil desire. It involves a universally humble frame of heart, with watchfulness over every evil, along with the performance of every duty. That’s what we must seek to do.

If anyone then wants to really and truly kill any particular sin, he should be very sure to be equally as diligent in obeying God in every other area of his life. He needs to know and behave as if every sin, every evil desire, every failure to perform his duty is as equally as bothersome to God as the sin he wants to get rid of – because they are. While the heart is indulging a negligent attitude towards obedience to God in everything, the soul is weak since it is not giving faith to the entire work it is called to do. It is selfish, because it’s more concerned with the personal consequences of sin rather than its unholiness and inherent filth. And it is a constant provocation to God.



CHAPTER NINE
When an evil desire has been in our hearts for a long time, festering and corrupting away inside of us, it puts our spirit into a terrible state... Old, neglected wounds are usually fatal. They are always dangerous. When we let an indwelling sin stay with us for a long time, it becomes like drug-resistant bacteria – deadly and difficult to kill.

People who belong to Christ, and who live from gospel principles, have His death, fellowship with God, and a deep-rooted hatred of sin as sin to use as the motivation to kill sin and every evil desire in their hearts. That’s how Joseph resisted the temptation to sleep with Pharaoh’s wife, saying, “How then can I do this great wickedness and sin against God?” (Genesis 39:9). Similarly Paul says, “The love of Christ controls us” (2 Corinthians 5:14) and “Since we have these promises, beloved, let us cleanse ourselves from every defilement of body and spirit” (2 Corinthians 7:1). But if someone is so overpowered by his evil desires that only the threats of the law are keeping him from actually doing it, if he can no longer fight sin with the power of the gospel but instead can only do it through fear of hell, it’s clear that sin has achieved a significant degree of control over his heart and his will.



CHAPTER TEN
Sin’s evil breath fogs up the mind so that it can’t make a proper judgment about it. Rationalizations, extenuating circumstances, mixed-up desires, promises to reform later, and hope for future forgiveness all play a role in keeping the mind from truly understanding the magnitude of what we are doing.

You who used to have such a tender heart, who used to melt under the power of the word of God, who used to turn to Him during your trials, will come to be what some have described as “sermon-proof and sickness-proof.” You who, when you were in much better spiritual condition than today, used to tremble at the thought of dying and having to appear in the presence of God to give an account for your life, now casually skip your duties, prayers, reading the word, attending church, etc., without it bothering your heart at all. Sin will become a trivial thing to you. You’ll commit it without thinking twice. This is what it turns into in your life over time. Is there any worse thing that can happen to you? Isn’t just the thought of this happening enough to send a chill down your spine? Trivializing grace, mercy, the blood of Christ, the law, and heaven and hell will all be the result of sin in time. This is what your evil desires are trying to accomplish in you, namely the total hardening of your heart, the numbing of your conscience, the blinding of your mind, and the total deceiving of your soul.

Though God may not completely cut you off because of your sin, there’s a very good chance He will apply the rod of discipline. Though He’ll forgive your sins, He’ll still take action to stop you from committing them anymore. Remember David and all the trouble he had. Does it scare you to think about God killing your child in His anger, sending huge setbacks into your life in anger, breaking your bones in anger, letting you experience some terrible scandal or humiliation in anger, or maybe even killing you in anger? Does it scare you to think that other people might also experience huge pain or experience God’s punishment on account of your sin? It should.

To have peace with God and the strength to walk with Him is really the summation of great promises we receive from His covenant of grace. This is where the spiritual life is found.

Someone who is entangled with sin like the person above, who is continuing to live under the power of corruption, can’t have any assurance of salvation. It would be very appropriate for him to fear of the eternal judgment of God, and he should assume that’s what is going to end up happening to him unless he repents. “There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus” (Romans 8:1). That’s true, but who does it apply to? Who can feel confident that he is safe from condemnation? Those “who walk not according to the flesh but according to the Spirit” (v4), that’s who.

As a tender and loving person is grieved when a friend is mean to him, so it is with the great tender and loving Holy Spirit, who decided to actually move in and make His home in our hearts, and once there to bless us. He’s grieved when we harbor His enemies in our hearts, ones He’s on a mission to destroy.

The Holy Spirit, who has decided to live in them, is continually observing what it is that entertains their heart, and He rejoices when His temple is kept undefiled.

Our sin hurts the new creation Christ made inside of us, tramples on the love He has for us, and pleases His enemy. It is turning our backs on Him through the deceitfulness of sin and “crucifying once again the Son of God to their own harm and holding Him up to contempt” (Hebrews 6:6). So every time we hold on to sin in our hearts – the very sin Christ came to destroy – we are hurting and grieving Him.

The world today is full of poor, pathetic believers. How few of them actually walk in any beauty or glory! How barren and useless they are for the most part! Among the many reasons for this sad state of affairs – and it’s an important reason – is that too many of them are harboring evil desires in their hearts. That evil is in their heart like worms eating away the roots of their obedience, corroding and weakening it day by day. This undermines every gift, and all the ways gifts are used and developed. We should expect that God will prevent people like these from having much spiritual success.



CHAPTER ELEVEN
Consider what God could have done to you in light of your sin. He could have subjected you to public humiliation and shame. He could have sent you to hell. Think about all the provocations you’ve given Him. Beyond just being an average sinner, you’ve “lied to Him with your tongue” and dealt falsely with Him by “flattering Him with your mouth” (Psalm 78:36) then breaking every promise you ever made to Him by the sin you are committing. Yet He continues to spare you time after time though you seem bound and determined to see how long He can hold out against your insults. And you’re still going to sin against Him again? You’re going to try His patience with you again and see if you can get Him to ignore what you’re doing? Haven’t you sometimes felt like you’ve finally pushed God too far and there’s no possible way He could forgive you again, spare you from hell again, and redeem your life yet again? And yet, despite everything that you expected, He came back to you again with His love and mercy. And you’re still going to keep on sinning against Him to His face?

[The Law of God] makes us aware of our sin, of how guilty we are. It wakes us up out of our sleep and gets our attention. It holds up a mirror so we can see the reality of our sin. If you refuse to deal with your sin at this point, it’s not because of your faith in Christ, it’s because sin has hardened your heart.

How often have you been literally at the door of becoming hardened by the deceitfulness of sin, and yet by the infinite and rich grace of God you recovered your fellowship with Him? Haven’t you been in places where you found His gifts to you wasting away and your delight in your duties, prayer, and meditation disappearing? Haven’t you found yourself increasingly inclined to a careless walk with God? Haven’t you found yourself enjoying hanging out with an ungodly crowd, going places and doing things you know God hates? Haven’t you seen what happened to other people who were in similar situations? Somehow God in His mercy saved you from that place. But yet again you’ll take a chance by putting yourself in jeopardy of your heart getting hardened?



CHAPTER TWELVE
In the physical world, a strong desire for something has no value unless it motivates a person to actually take some action to make the thing desired actually come to pass. It’s different in the spiritual world. In the spiritual world, longing after deliverance – breathing and panting after it – is a grace all its own, and it changes the soul towards accomplishing it... So get yourself into a state where your heart is panting and breathing for deliverance from sin, just like David did in the Old Testament.



CHAPTER THIRTEEN
Sometimes our very personalities or even our physical makeup can make us particularly vulnerable to certain sins... Just because you have some unique vulnerability to sins in your natural makeup, this is not an “extenuating circumstance” that frees you from your guilt. Some people will try to blame anything other than themselves for even the most horrible crimes... The fact that you are particularly vulnerable to a specific sin just means that’s the way sin manifests itself in your life... Sin is always difficult to fight. If this one has a special advantage over you because of your personal makeup, then without extraordinary watchfulness, care, and diligence, you can be sure it is going to be victorious over you.



CHAPTER FIFTEEN
[You] should act quickly and forcefully against your sin as soon as you find out it is acting against you. Fight fast and fight hard. Don’t let it get any ground. Don’t tell your sin, “You can go this far, but no farther.” If you give it one step, it will surely take another. It’s impossible to try to put a boundary around sin. It’s like water in a channel: if it breaks out, it will follow its own way. Keeping sin from getting started in the first place is actually easier than trying to keep it safely restrained once it does.

Are you finding that sin is beginning to worm its way into your thoughts? Rise up and fight with all your strength against it. Do that with no less anger that you’d have if it fully got what it wanted. Think about what evil thoughts want to bring forth. Lust wants to make you commit fornication and adultery. Envy’s ultimate goals are murder and destruction. So when they come, fight against them with no less strength than if they’d already driven you to behaving wickedly. If you don’t do this, you’ll never beat sin. Because with every bit of success sin has in getting you to enjoy the thought of it, it also has success in making you think it’s not that severe.



CHAPTER SIXTEEN
We talk about God all the time. We talk about His ways, His works, His plans, and His character. But the truth is, we just don’t know that much about Him. Our thoughts, our meditations, and the things we say about Him are completely insufficient to express His actual glory and the true nature of His attributes.

Let me first acknowledge that there’s a vast and almost inconceivable difference between what we know about God now and what people had when they were still under the law. Their eyes were as good, as sharp, and as clear as ours. They had faith and spiritual understanding as good as ours. And God was as glorious to them as He is to us. But our times are clearer than theirs were. The dark of night is gone and the sun has risen high in the sky. This has made it much easier for us to see than it was for them.

Remember that even the most spiritual people on Earth, the ones we think have the closest relationship with Him, still in this life don’t know anything other than the smallest portion of what there is to know about our God.

Paul praised to the highest the superiority of the glory of the light of the gospel above that of the law. He talked about how the “veil” that darkens our sight is taken away so that with “open” or “unveiled face” we are “beholding the glory of the Lord” (2 Corinthians 3:18). But do we see perfectly? Alas, not. He also tells us that: “For now we see through a glass, darkly” (1 Corinthians 13:12 KJV). Paul isn’t talking about a telescope here (though even with telescopes we don’t get anywhere near the clear picture of things we’d like to). No, he’s talking about a looking glass – that is, a dull mirror – something that only produces images of things, and not very good ones at that. That’s what he’s comparing our knowledge to. He also tells us that everything we see “by” or “through this glass” is in “a riddle” – it’s dark and obscure. And speaking about himself, one who surely saw God more clearly than anyone alive now does, tells us that he only saw “in part.” He only saw the backs of heavenly things.

Paul compares everything he ever learned about God to the knowledge of earthly things he had when he was a child, knowing he would eventually grow beyond them (see 1 Corinthians 13:11-1223). We know what weak, feeble, and uncertain ideas and notions children have about anything that’s difficult or complex. And we know that when they outgrow their childish notions they look back on them with embarrassment. Children are called to love, honor, believe, and obey their father. But their fathers know just how silly their ideas are about adult matters. Similarly, despite all our confidence in the things we’ve learned or attained, all our ideas about God are childish when compared to His actual infinite nature and character. We can babble on and on about everything that we think we know so well about God. We can love, honor, believe, and obey our Heavenly Father. For His part, He takes it all in, but He also understands just how childish even our best and most accurate thoughts about Him are.

We can think that we’ve attained great knowledge, clear and exalted thoughts about God, but when we actually find ourselves in His presence we will cry out, “We never knew Him as He is! We didn’t even know the thousandth part of His glory and perfection and blessedness. It never even entered into our hearts!”

Paul gives his glorious description of God as He “who alone has immortality, who dwells in unapproachable light, whom no one has ever seen or can see” (1 Timothy 6:16). His light is so bright nothing can approach Him. He is not seen because He cannot be seen – because we cannot endure the sight of Him. The light of God, in whom there is no darkness, prevents access to Him by any creature whatsoever. We are so weak that we can’t even look directly at the sun. How much less into the light and glory of God? When considering these things, a wise man will confess that “I am too stupid to be a man” (Proverbs 30:2). That is, he knows nothing of God, and so seems to know nothing at all about anything when he turns his mind to think about God and His ways and works.

What could I say about the Trinity, for example? One God, three Persons. It’s a mystery many people have denied simply because nobody can actually understand it. Can anyone really explain the “generation of the Son” or the “procession of the Spirit”24 – or the difference of one from the other? I don’t think I need to go any further here. Suffice it to say the infinite and inconceivable distance between God and us keeps us in the dark as to any sight of His face or clear understanding of any of His infinite attributes.

God’s goal in giving us any knowledge about Himself is to so that we will “glorify Him as God.” That is, so we will love Him, serve Him, believe and obey Him – to give Him the honor and glory that is due from pathetic sinful creatures like us to a forgiving and God and Creator. All of us have to admit that we have never fully lived out the knowledge that we’ve been given.

Christ by His word and His Spirit does reveal God the Father to the hearts of all His people: as a Father, as a covenant-keeping God, and as rewarder. This is completely sufficient to teach us to obey Him here, to lead us to Him, to make us lie down in His bosom forever. Yet it is still only a tiny portion of Him that we actually know.

The gospel wasn’t revealed to give us knowledge or experience of God’s essential glory. It doesn’t enable us to see Him as He really is. It only tells us enough to serve as a foundation for our faith, love, obedience, and pursuit of Him. That is, its goal is to give us enough knowledge of God so that we can do what He expects us to do (whatever it is that poor creatures like ourselves living in the middle of temptations are capable of doing). But in the world to come, when He calls us to eternal, uninterrupted admiration and contemplation of Him, He will reveal Himself to us in a completely different way. The things we see now will disappear like a shadow.



CHAPTER SIXTEEN
When we go to Christ for healing, our faith sees Him specifically as someone who has been pierced. Faith takes many different views of Christ, depending on the occasion in which it addresses Him and the fellowship that it has with Him. Sometimes faith views His holiness, sometimes His power, sometimes His love, and sometimes His favor with the Father. And when it goes for healing, then the stripes on His back are to be looked at, the blood of the covenant: “with his wounds we are healed” (Isaiah 53:5). Not the outward story of them, which is how Roman Catholics think of it, but to look on the love, kindness, mystery, and design of the cross. When we look for peace, the punishments Christ endured must be in our minds. If this is done according to the Spirit who is poured out on believers, then it will make us hate the sin or sins that we are seeking healing and peace from. “Yet I will remember my covenant with you in the days of your youth, and I will establish for you an everlasting covenant.” And what then? “Then you will remember your ways and be ashamed” (Ezekiel 16:60-61).

A person can beg for healing in the right way from the true Great Physician of his soul. He can comfort his troubled heart with the promises of grace in the covenant. But when peace is spoken to him, if it doesn’t come along with absolute hatred of the sin that caused him to feel so troubled in the first place, then it wasn’t a peace God created, but it was a peace he made for himself. It’s like putting a band-aid on gangrene. The underlying rot of sin is still there and will continue to eat away inside and break out again and again and again. People who do this – who run to Christ for mercy and want to be rid of the trouble sin is causing them, but want to keep savoring the taste of sin under their tongue – should never believe that they have any true and lasting peace... If that’s the case, you may actually be saved – though “only as through fire” (1 Corinthians 3:15) – and maybe God will still do some things for you and through you, but don’t expect much peace. Instead expect to be sick and fainting your entire life (see Isaiah 57:17).

There are three types or levels of life: the vegetative, the sensible, and the rational.26 Everything living takes part in the vegetative life, that is, physical growth alone, including things like taking in nutrients and reproducing. Plants have only this form of life. Animals add to that the sensible life, meaning the ability to sense and respond to their environment. Human beings also add to these two the rational life, meaning the life of the mind, which enables abstract thinking. Someone who has the capability of rational thought doesn’t live according to that alone, but also to the other lower forms of life. So people not only think, they also eat, reproduce, respond to their environment, etc. It’s the same with people in the way they relate to the things of God. Some are merely natural and rational people. Others have a conviction of sin and an illumination of truth added to that. And still others are truly regenerate. Anyone who has a higher level of spiritual life also has the lower levels. So a believer, someone who is regenerated by the power of the Spirit, still continues to experience conviction and illumination and also can still think normal thoughts. So a believer’s true regenerate life is not always the thing that underpins everything that we do. Sometimes lower levels of life like our rational minds also cause us to do things.

Worst of all, this false peace doesn’t change a person’s life. It doesn’t heal the evil. It doesn’t cure the sickness of sin. When God speaks peace, it changes the person so that he will “not turn back to folly” (Psalm 85:8). When we speak peace to ourselves, we don’t get rid of the evil in our hearts. In fact, this is one of the fastest paths to backsliding. If, having bandaged yourself up, you find yourself struggling with sin again instead of having been delivered from it, it’s very clear that while you may have been at work in your soul, Jesus Christ and His Spirit weren’t. In fact, all too often after having convinced us that all is well with our soul, our rational minds will shortly be inventing excuses and justifications for going right back into sin. When God speaks peace He brings such sweetness and such a sensation of His love to our souls that it serves as a powerful incentive not to commit that sin anymore.



CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
[By] faith think often of the unlimited supply of grace that is in Jesus Christ, and how He can at any time strengthen and deliver you. Even if that does not give you an immediate victory, at least you will be strengthened in your chariot. And you won’t run from the battlefield until the battle is over. You’ll be saved from despair, from giving up in unbelief, or from seeking “help” from other places that will never work and never give you the victory you’re looking for. The value in doing this will only come over time as you put it into practice.

Though it might seem like a long time as you’re waiting for help in the middle of your struggle with sin, you can be sure that help will come at the appointed time. And you can also be sure that the time appointed by Lord Jesus is the best time. So raise up your heart to a certain expectation of relief from Christ, Look at Him “as the eyes of servants look to the hand of their master” (Psalm 123:2) when he is expecting something from that master. If you do, your soul will be satisfied and Christ will surely deliver you. He will kill your evil desires and you will have true peace in the end. Just look for it from Him – expect Him to do it. And remember: “If you are not firm in faith, you will not be firm at all” (Isaiah 7:9).

“Because He Himself has suffered when tempted, He is able…” Did the sufferings and temptations Christ experienced add to His ability and power? Given that He is God, technically they didn’t. He was already all-powerful. What this is referring to is His being ready and willing to use His power to help us. He is willing to help and there’s nothing that can stop Him. He is able, having suffered and been tempted, to break through anything to help us poor, tempted souls: “He is able to help.” It is a way of referring to the effect his temptations produced. Because He was tempted, He is now willing to help us. This is repeated again in Hebrews 4:15-16: For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but one who in every respect has been tempted as we are, yet without sin. Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need. The encouragement in verse 16 is exactly what I’m trying to get across. It’s this: that we should expect to receive help from Christ, which the writer calls “grace to help in time of need.”

God tells us that His covenant with us is like the physical laws that govern the movements of the sun, the moon, and the stars (Jeremiah 31:36). That’s why the psalmist said he waited for God’s relief “more than watchmen for the morning” (Psalm 130:6). That is, it would certainly come just like morning would come at its appointed time for the soldiers on night watch. Your help from Christ will be like that. It will come at the appointed time like rain on parched desert ground. “He who calls you is faithful; He will surely do it” (1 Thessalonians 5:24).

A person who is expecting something from somebody else will surely make sure he knows exactly how he’s going to get it. A panhandler begging for change will go to where he expects the people are who will give him money. In the way Christ usually works, He expects us to be both waiting and looking for Him, and behaving in the ways that we should expect will help us access the help He promises. We do this from an expectation of faith, not idle hope. That’s why we pray, meditate, etc. We do them with the expectation that Christ will help us because these are means He’s given us to access that help. Everything we do comes down to this. We do them based on an expectation of help from Christ and for no other reason.

[Paul] tells where it is we receive this baptism into the death of Christ. It comes from that death of Christ itself. He says, “Our old self was crucified with him in order that the body of sin might be brought to nothing” (v6). We were not physically crucified with Christ at Golgotha, but we were crucified with respect to the effects that crucifixion produced, of which there are three specific ones that are relevant here: We were crucified meritoriously. Sin has been completely crucified and killed in its ability to condemn us eternally, and this obtains for us the Spirit by which we can put to death the indwelling sin that remains in us. We were crucified efficiently.30 The death of Christ is the cause of us receiving the power to crucify sin. We were crucified by way of representation and example. As He was crucified for our sin, so we should be crucified to sin. This is what Paul means: Christ by His death, having destroyed the works of the devil and having purchased the Spirit for us, has so killed sin in its rule over believers, that it will not have dominion over them or achieve its objective in them.

It is the Holy Spirit, and the Holy Spirit alone, who clearly and fully convinces us of the evil, guilt, and danger of the corruption, evil desire, or sin that is to be killed. Without this conviction, or while it is so faint that the heart can fight against it or simply swallow it up, no serious and complete effort to kill sin will be made. An unbelieving heart (which we all have in part) will use any excuse it can until it is overpowered by clear convictions. This is the proper work of the Spirit. “He will convict the world concerning sin” (John 16:8). He alone can do it. If people’s rational thinking or mere intellectual considerations combined with the preaching of the Bible were able to convict people of their sins, we’d see a lot more of it than we actually do. The preaching of the word shows people that they are sinners, what things actually are sinful, and that they themselves are guilty of doing them. But this light is not very bright or powerful, nor does it really get a hold of the soul to such an extent to truly convince it – or produce the repentance that should clearly follow if it were convinced. And so even the smartest people we know don’t think that they are really sinners or bad people at all, at least they don’t apart from the work of the Spirit. It is the Spirit alone who shows people their true condition. And this is the first thing the Spirit does in order to kill any sin whatsoever. He convicts the soul of all its evil. He cuts off all its pleas and deceptions. He puts a stop to all its excuses and evasions. He exposes every false pretense. And He makes the soul own up to its own abominations and lie down in them. Unless this is done, nothing else matters.

The Battle of First Bull Run: 21 July 1861

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