Wednesday, May 09, 2007

here i am again...

It has happened again: my girlfriend broke up with me this afternoon.

Before you start getting angry at her, let me step up in her defense. While in the past, girls have stepped on my heart and squished it as if it were some kind of venomous arachnid, this situation is different. Granted, I am not the happiest camper right now. How could I be? Am I mad? No. I understand her reasons. I am just… frustrated. Frustrated because this always happens. I feel as if I can’t expect any more. I can’t expect a normal relationship because, quite frankly, I’m not normal. I’m too strange. Too weird. And I have the worst luck with girls. Somehow I always end up with the good ones—and, in this case, even the best ones—but this sparkle of hope breaks with the tidewaters of normalcy. I can’t exactly tell you what it is—and this out of ignorance—but for some reason none of my relationships work out. Do I have too high of expectations? I used to. Not anymore, though. I guess I just want a normal relationship. Where I like her, she likes me, and we enjoy a good relationship without all the complexities and extenuating circumstances that make a normal relationship hard to come by or flat-out impossible.

Did I treat Courtney right? Yes. Did I make sacrifices for her? Yes, but I should have made more. I can turn over my relationship and scrutinize over every detail with a microscope, but I must just confess that I am not perfect. I made some mistakes. Everyone does. But on top of those mistakes, I treated her right. I treated her like a princess. We like each other a lot. But we both have issues we need to deal with, and if we are in a relationship, dealing with those issues becomes second-priority. Neither of us are ready for a serious relationship with the concept of marriage on the doorstep. What marriage needs—in my case, maturity and responsibility, and in her case, you’ll have to ask her because I’m not going to divulge her secrets on the internet—are not present in us. Where I succeed, she fails; and where she succeeds, I fail. Both of us have so much to work on. We are good people, she and I, but we aren’t ready for marriage—and if marriage is what dating is all about (at least in this point in my life), then what’s the use of dating when we don’t even have the fundamental building-blocks required for marriage?

How am I doing? I’m doing all right. Granted, tears welled up in my eyes a while after she broke up with me. I like that girl a lot. I mean, I really, really like her. She means the world to me. And not being with her anymore, not being able to call her “my girl”, not being able to enjoy a romantic relationship with her… Well, it feels like someone has sucked the oxygen out of my lungs and then plunged me into a deep vat of icy-cold water. But I must take the pain, because I know that she did what she had to do. For once in my life I have to simply suck it up and confess, “She’s right. We’re not in the right condition for a relationship.” I can’t base everything off of how it “makes me feel.” Sometimes, as the dirty cliché goes, “Truth hurts.” A friend and I went to Mt. Echo and talked after she broke up with me. Courtney and I had gone to Mt. Echo so many times, all the memories hit me like a flood: memories that once brought laughter and joy now brought sorrow. But I have to embrace the sorrow and let it transform me. Let it teach me. Let it mold me… And let it transform, teach, and mold me in good, beneficial ways.

I’m not angry with her. I’m upset, sure, but not angry. “Upset” can have so many different meanings. I am “upset” in the sense that my heart is heavy, a knot forms in my throat, I find myself fighting off the voices in the quiet: Why even try? You will never have a normal relationship. You’re too weird for it. You’re not good enough. You’re just a screw-up. The Enemy likes to attack me in this way. I know these are his most potent lies—he attacks me where I am weakest, and he does so feociously—but sometimes it’s hard to fight them. I am “upset,” but not at her. I am upset at the situation, but not at her. She did what she had to do. She did what she knew she had to do. She did what both of us knew had to happen, but something I did not have the ability to do. She had to step up to bat, and she did. And she should be commended for that, even though it causes me—and her, let’s not forget—pain.

I want everyone to know that Courtney is a very good friend of mine. She means a lot to me. I hope that one day we will be back together. I don’t want to be with Sonja, Jessica, or even Julie. I want to be with Courtney. And she wants to be with me. But right now, that can’t happen. Maybe next semester will be better. But then again, maybe not.

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

an excerpt from a story

This is an excerpt from a fantasy story I am toying with:
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      The storm continued to rage in all its might early into the morning. The fire died down to mere embers, then vanished completely. Larien leaned her head against the cold stone wall, praying to the gods for protection and deliverance. The evil presence continued to grow in the darkness, and at times she felt as if someone were standing across the chamber, watching her. She kept her eyes closed, refusing to look, confident that her eyes would betray her even if nothing was there. Keeping her eyes shut made it all the less real.
        The prayers comforted her for a time, but then the terror grew to unimaginable proportions. Her eyes forced themselves open, and she saw standing before her across the chamber a ghastly image: a shadowy figure draped in a dark green robe speckled with dirt and grime, a dark hood covering the top of the head and masking the face in shadow; she sat paralyzed, unable to move, unable to breathe, unable to scream. The figure threw its head back, and she saw poisonous bloodshot eyes and blood dripping from its fangs. Its skeletal arms reached for her, and in them she saw a young child, moaning as blood trickled down its neck. A wild, cacophonous laugh filled the chamber, dancing off the icy stone walls, and the figure threw the child at her, the blood flinging against the stone walls and ceiling. The child fell into her lap, and she realized Eärendur was gone. She looked down at the child and saw its eyes glazed over, blood gurgling from a giant rip in its throat where a dagger had been thrust.
          The figure shrieked, “Eat it! Taste it! Drink its blood and embrace your destiny!"
            She hurled the child away and leapt to her feet. She screamed and rushed at the figure in a mystical rage; the figure vanished as she swung her fists at it, and there where it had stood, she saw Eärendur lying, his bare stomach ripped open and entrails strewn all over the floor, rats chewing on his maggoty-
              “Larien!"
              She screamed, her voice echoing over the chamber. Fierce arms held her. She shrieked and tore away, yelling, “Get off me! Get off me!”
                The arms continued to grab her. “Larien!” Eärendur shouted. “It’s me! It’s me!”
                  She looked up and instead of seeing bloodshot eyes and fangs dripping with blood, she saw the stenciled and worried façade of her beloved. She fell into his arms, sobbing, as the storm continued to unleash.
                    Eärendur stroked her hair, whispered in her ear, “It’s okay, Larien. It’s okay. It was just a dream. It was just a dream.” She wept in his arms as they stood in the middle of the desolate chamber. “A dream,” Eärendur told her; “Just a dream.”
                      She wasn’t too sure. It had seemed so real. She could still feel the warmth of the child’s blood on her hands as she embraced Eärendur in a fierce hug and refused to let go.

                      Saturday, May 05, 2007

                      happy feet re:mix



                      The dancing penguin in the very beginning reminds me of Chad Thomas, ha. I love penguins.

                      On the agenda for today: rearrange, clean up, and organize my bedroom; finish writing my David & Bathsheba paper; finish my Pauline Epistles exam; mow the lawn.

                      Courtney and I talked for about half an hour last night around 2:00 a.m. She calls me her "Googlie Bear." Kirby told her to call me by that name and see how I responded. I think it's cute :). I work 6-9 on Sunday, but after that we are going to hang out. I'm looking forward to it--we haven't hung out since Wednesday, because of her work schedule and homework.

                      Mom is doing well despite her surgery. She is doing better than I expected her to be doing this early in recovery.

                      I have a love-hate relationship with weird dreams. Thursday night I dreamt that Amos and I were driving along the western hills of Cincinnati when a meteor came down and struck the Ohio River. The southern end of the city was overcome with a tidal wave, and the multiple bridges collapsed. I knew Courtney was downtown, so I jumped out of the car and ran towards the city. Half the city exploded in a great ball of flame from an underground gasoline main (weird, I know). The exhaust of the explosion hit me and I was thrown back into the hills, somehow surviving the fall. So strange...

                      Friday, May 04, 2007

                      and we dance the night away...



                      Courtney and I dancing outside Wednesday night.

                      I haven't seen Courtney much since Wednesday, because she has been enslaved in work at her grandparents motorcycle racing track and swamped in writing lesson plans for one of her classes. I'm excited about hanging out with her Sunday night: we might go get coffee at Newport if we can borrow someone's car.

                      Most of my dorm room is moved out. I've packed up all but a handful of my books (books I need for a project this coming week), and I've brought almost all my laundry home. This time next week I will be moved into home for the summer, and that thought is both exciting yet depressing. Exciting, because I won't have to arise at the crack of dawn anymore, I'll have more time to devote to writing, and I'll enjoy a good summer job working with both Kyle and Amos. Depressing, because I won't see many of my friends for quite some time, I'll only see Courtney a few times over the summer, and sometimes being alone in the house has a tendency to become exhausting emotionally (stupid genes).

                      Mom had her tonsils removed today. She's up and moving about in spurts, sleeping in between, but doing rather well. Both my grandparents and my aunt Teri came down to see how she is doing. My mom's parents, my aunt, my sister and her boyfriend Tom, and I all went to Marion's in Centerville for dinner. Deluxe pizzas are great. I'm thinking about buying a used xbox; I can get them online for relatively cheap. I have to write a paper on David & Bathsheba this weekend, as well as finish my Pauline Epistles exam. Dyke asked us to email him about our final exam, but none of us have heard anything back from him, so I have no idea on how to prepare for this supposed test. I'm not worried about it, though.

                      Thursday, May 03, 2007

                      a grueling thursday...

                      It's been a boring day: Gospels class at 11:00, work 12:15-2:00, and then I've spent the rest of the day doing homework. I've finished my David papers, and I'm halfway done with my Pauline Epistles final. Courtney went home today to work on stuff for the motorcycle race she's working at tomorrow night. It sucks, because I'm bored out of my mind and I can't see her. I only saw her for about two minutes today when she came and visited me in the coffee shop. We had fun last night, though, sitting out on the hill in the grass with Trista and taking funny pictures. One of our student security guards came over on a power-trip and tried to act like he was monitoring us, even though we were sitting right on the curb in plain view of the entire campus.

                      I've been working on my "Life of David" book. It is basically nothing more than an exploration of David's life in chronological order of certain passages. Most books I have seen on the life of David arrange David's life topically; in going the chronological direction, I am doing it in a unique way. The emphasis of this work is on the cultural and historical backgrounds of David. I am doing a lot of good research on the historical and cultural backgrounds of the various texts. I have already discovered many things in the text that an untrained eye--an eye such as mine!--would not see without the aide of studying cultural and historical backgrounds. I find the life of David fascinating, and I am putting up the sections of my book as I go through it. Here are the two complete first sections below:

                      The Life of David: Prologue - The Evolution of a Nation
                      The Life of David: Act I - David's Early Years

                      I found some cool images online that go with the story of "David and Goliath." Here they are with the reasons why I chose them amongst hundreds of others:




                      I like this painting because it captures both the size of Goliath (nine and a half feet tall) as well as his general dress (in accordance with classic Homeric, Aegean fashion). Interestingly, the javelin slung across his back in this painting was most likely a scimitar in the actual event. This is what Goliath may have looked like in his everyday existence.




                      This image depicts Goliath standing before the armies of Israel (unseen) and announcing a challenge: their best warrior against him in a fight to the death, and the losing side becomes the winning side's slaves. This "Trial by Champion" is a Greek concept the Philistines probably knew well, having come from the Aegean Sea around the 13th Century B.C. Here, Goliath is echoing forth his challenge, insulting the Israelite army, and mocking their God YHWH.



                      A young Israelite boy of about seventeen years old--named David--decided to take on the challenger. Armed only with a sling, he goes before the towering Philistine warrior and, in a running gallop, releases the stone. The sling in the ancient world was a deadly weapon, capable of hurling a stone up to 30 mph (some Egyptian records state that a skilled slinger could throw his stone up to 100 mph). I like and dislike this picture. I like this picture because it captures the terrain of the Valley of Elah, where the battle was fought: two opposing hillsides, a cutting ravine, and a dried-up creek bed formed the terrain of the battlefield. I dislike it because David is seen here throwing the stone from a stopped position while the text of 1 Samuel 17 states that he was running when he released the stone.




                      David did not slay the giant with a sling, contrary to popular belief. Rather, he knocked the giant unconscious with the sling, killed the giant with his own sword, and then cut off his head. I like this picture because it captures the image of David drawing the Philistine warrior's sword from its sheath, with the Israelites in the back right rallying before their charge against the fleeing Philistine army to the left.



                      This is a digital image, and it's my favorite. I love how you see the sling in David's right hand, the sword in his left, and Goliath fallen at his feet. This image captures the moments before David bends down and cuts off Goliath's head.

                      Wednesday, May 02, 2007

                      receiving salvation, part IV: baptism

                      Baptism is one of the most hotly debated issues when it comes to the requirements God sets forth for salvation. Churches have been split, denominations have arisen, and Christians have lost sleep over this subject, which is perhaps one of the hottest issues on the Christian playing-field today. There are three main views on baptism’s role in salvation and/or the life of a Christian. Each of these three views will be presented.

                      But first, “Why is there such division among Christians regarding the role baptism plays in salvation and/or the life of a Christian?” The view of salvation as needed for salvation was believed nearly unanimously by Christians for 1500 years, since the birth of Christianity. Famous theologians such as Martin Luther and Justin Martyr believed baptism was needed for salvation, and they believed this because they thought the scriptures clearly taught this, and they believed that their predecessors (including the Apostles) believed it (the one exception to this role, they believed, were martyrs). The divisions began in the years of 1523 to 1525, when a Swiss reformer and contemporary of Martin Luther—Huldreich Zwingli—denied any connection of salvation with baptism, stating that baptism is nearly the “covenant sign” of the New Covenant, just as circumcision was the covenant sign of the Old Covenant. This view has been adopted by nearly all non-Lutheran protestants; thus, the view that baptism is needed for salvation is not a new view but the old view; the new view is the view that baptism is not essential for salvation. Zwingli’s view flowed out of an interpretation of John 3.5 and Mark 1.8, where Christ speaks of water and Spirit baptism. Zwingli separated “water” and “Spirit” baptism into two separate baptisms, stating that one is saved by the “Spirit” baptism that takes place when one puts his or her faith in Christ, and baptism, then, becomes an outward sign of the grace that has been experienced within the sinner.

                      The First View: Baptism Not Necessary For Salvation

                      The view that baptism is not necessary for salvation, and that its role in the life of a Christian is not pertinent to salvation, is the most common view in the Western world. According to this view, baptism is an “outward demonstration of an inward grace.” Proponents of this view believe that one experiences salvation and regeneration of the Holy Spirit when he or she comes to God in faith and repentance. This grace bestowed upon the person is demonstrated publicly and symbolically in baptism. It is, in a sense, the “covenant sign” of the New Covenant, whereas circumcision was the covenant sign of the Old Covenant. Baptism, then, is simply an act of obedience, as the scriptures clearly tell us to be baptized. The argument for this view is as follows…

                      Baptism illustrates a believer’s identification with Christ’s death, burial, and resurrection. Romans 6.3-4, according to the proponents of this view, should be taken as illustrative of what has happened to those who have come to faith in Christ. The action of baptism is purely symbolic: going under the water symbolizes a Christian’s being buried with Christ, and coming out of the water symbolizes a Christian’s resurrection with Christ.

                      The major argument against baptism being necessary for salvation comes from the view that baptism is a human work, and that anything in addition to faith in Christ as being required for salvation is a works-based salvation. For one to say that baptism is needed for salvation is to say that Christ’s death was not sufficient enough to purchase our salvation. Jesus’ death alone paid for the sins of humanity (Romans 5.8, 2 Corinthians 5.21). Jesus’ payment for our sins is appropriated to our “account” by faith alone (John 3.16, Acts 16.31, Ephesians 2.8-9). Baptism, then, is an important step of obedience that takes place after salvation, but it cannot be a requirement for salvation.

                      “What about the scriptures used by the proponents of the baptism-necessary-for-salvation viewpoint?” Proponents of this view acknowledge that there are some verses that seem to imply baptism as a necessary requirement for salvation, but a different interpretation of these verses is necessary since the scriptures clearly and plainly teach that salvation is received by faith alone (John 3.16, Ephesians 2.8-9, Titus 3.5). Scripture does not contradict scripture. Besides, if baptism is necessary for salvation, why would the Apostle Paul have said, “I am thankful that I did not baptize any of you except Crispus and Gaius” (1 Corinthians 1.14)? Why would he have said, “Christ did not sent me to baptize, but to preach the gospel—not with words of human wisdom, lest the cross of Christ be emptied of its power” (1 Corinthians 1.17)? While in these passages he is arguing against divisions in the church caused by different baptizers, why would he use this language in his rhetoric if he viewed baptism as necessary for salvation? If he did view baptism as necessary for salvation, then in these verses, he is essentially saying, “I am thankful that I did not save any of you…” and “Christ did not send me to save…” Further, when Paul gives a detailed outline of what he considers the gospel (1 Corinthians 15.1-8), why does he neglect to mention baptism if it is essential for salvation? Indeed, if baptism is a requirement for salvation, how could any presentation of the gospel lack a mentioning of baptism?

                      If baptism is not required for salvation, why was it commanded by the apostles and early Christians? In ancient Palestine, a person who converted from one religion to another was often baptized to identify conversion. Baptism, then, was the common means of making a decision public. Those who refused to be baptized were saying, in essence, that they did not truly believe. Therefore, in the minds of the apostles and early Christians, the idea of an un-baptized believer was unheard-of. When a person claimed to believe in Christ, yet was ashamed to proclaim his faith in public, it indicated that he did not have true faith.

                      The Second View: Baptist Necessary For Salvation

                      The view that baptism is necessary for salvation is most commonly held within those churches of the reformation, i.e. Independent Churches of Christ. According to this view, total-immersion baptism is essential for one’s salvation. While it is the blood of Christ that cleanses us of all sin, this view states that the blood of Christ is not applied to us until we “go under the water.” The argument of this view is as follows…

                      Throughout the New Testament, baptism is always connected with salvation. In a plain reading of the scriptures, baptism is viewed as a condition for salvation, just as it is with faith, repentance, and confession. Baptism serves as a “double-cure” needed for salvation. The “double-trouble” of humanity is this: humanity is guilty and under the penalty of hell, and humanity is depraved (spiritually sick and sinful). God’s solution is twofold: He removes the guilt and condemnation of sin via Jesus’ blood, and He gives humans the indwelling Holy Spirit to cure this spiritual sickness: the Holy Spirit regenerates and renews the sin-sick heart and breaks the grip of sin on the soul. The Holy Spirit’s work as seen in the New Testament scriptures are as following: through the Spirit, we experience a new birth, become new creation, are given a new life of connection with God, experience regeneration, experience renewal, and experience resurrection.

                      The question, then, is, “When does this ‘double-cure’ take place?” The answer the proponents of this view give is, “At baptism!” God bestows salvation upon the sinner at the occasion of baptism. An accurate interpretation of the Greek in Acts 2.38 reads, “Repent and be baptized in order to obtain the forgiveness of your sins.” The Greek word connecting repentance and baptize in the verse above speaks of two equals being joined; thus repentance and baptism are held in equal status in the mind of the speaker, the Apostle Peter. Colossians 2.12 implies that in baptism the “double-cure” takes place. We are “buried with Christ” in baptism (see Romans 6.3-5); this means that we come into contact with Christ’s blood in baptism, and the blood then cleanses us of our guilt and condemnation. Colossians 2.12 continues to tell us that we are “raised with Christ” as we come out of the water, pertaining to the indwelling presence of the Holy Spirit given to us as we come out of the water. In Acts 22.16, baptism is linked with salvation, as “calling on His name” is a call for salvation (see Joel 2.32 and Acts 2.21). Titus 3.5 tells us that baptism brings about the indwelling presence of the Holy Spirit and renews us, and 1 Peter 3.19-21 (a favorite verse among the heralds of this view) reads: “[Noah] went and proclaimed God’s salvation to earlier generations who ended up in the prison of judgment because they wouldn’t listen. You know, even though God waited patiently all the days that Noah built his ship, only a few were saved then, eight to be exact—saved from the water by the water. The waters of baptism do that for you, not by washing away dirt from your skin but by presenting you through Jesus’ resurrection before God with a clear conscience.” (The Message, italics mine)

                      If this position on baptism is correct, why has God made baptism the time the “double-cure” takes place? The New Covenant has new elements, so a new framework for receiving the gift of salvation is necessary. The newness of the age requires a new, distinguishing element in receiving salvation. These new elements include a more complete revelation of God in Jesus Christ and the Trinity, the living presence of God in our daily lives, and the Holy Spirit in us. Also, baptism provides us assurance of our salvation: doubts and uncertainties plague us, so baptism serves as a concrete assurance that we have, indeed, experienced God’s grace. Since God has promised to save us in baptism, we bank on it (though if we use baptism as an excuse to do whatever we please, we are in condemnation, for baptism without the links of faith, repentance, and confession is as empty as experiencing confession without the three other conditions for salvation). Assurance of salvation, the proponents conclude, is only possible if baptism is tied to salvation.

                      The “enemies” of this view (most often those who view baptism as nonessential to salvation) bring up one very important key argument: “Baptism is a work of man, and therefore to claim that it is necessary to salvation is to hold to a works-based view of salvation.” Ephesians 2.8-9 clearly tells us that we are saved by faith, not by works. But what does “works” (as also seen in Romans 3.28 and Galatians 2.16) really mean? “Works” does not mean things done in the pattern of salvation (i.e. faith, repentance, confession, and baptism); rather, “works” refers to the person’s obeying of the law of God as revealed either in the Law of Moses or the general revelation of God’s law as seen in the universe (i.e. morality). “Faith” refers to anything the sinner does in obedience to what God has commanded in order to receive salvation. Engaging in the requirements for salvation is what the scriptures call “becoming obedient to the faith” (Acts 6.7) and “obeying the gospel” (Romans 10.16, 2 Thessalonians 1.8, 1 Peter 4.17). Faith, then, includes repentance, confession, and baptism! None of these are “works of the law,” since none are required of us simply because we are creatures God has made. Baptism, then, is not a “work of the law” as “works” are meant in such passages as Ephesians 2.8-9, Romans 3.20,28, Romans 4.4-5, Romans 11.6, and Galatians 2.16. Martin Luther held to this view, taking the “work” of baptism a step further: baptism is a work of God, not a work of man. A sinner embraces baptism in faith in the working of God in his heart (Colossians 2.12), trusting that in that moment God will forgive his sin and indwell him with His Holy Spirit.

                      If this view is true, a harrowing question must be asked: “What about those millions of Christians who have followed a false view of baptism, believing it to not be necessary for salvation?” First off, if someone is baptized, he or she will be saved whether or not he or she believes the saving act of God takes place in baptism. Correct doctrinal beliefs is not a prerequisite for salvation. “But what about those who have not been baptized because they have been taught that baptism is not necessary and thus optional?” It is very possible that God has made exceptions in His mercy, though we have no scriptural evidence of this. The best thing for a Christian to do is to be baptized A.S.A.P., even if he or she holds the baptism-not-necessary-for-salvation view or if he or she is still very confused with the whole matter. One must remember, too, that at the Great Judgment, God will judge people for how they lived in regards to what they knew. Thus if someone had no idea of baptism and its means for salvation, God could very well excuse them because they have an excuse for not undergoing baptism; that person may be cleared of guilt if he or she responded to what he or she knew (Rom 4.15).


                      The Third View: Baptist Necessary For The Holy Spirit But Not For Justification

                      The third view (and one not commonly held) is that baptism enables the indwelling presence of the Holy Spirit and the preceding sanctification, whereas faith and repentance bring about justification. While the second view says that there is no salvation outside baptism, this view says that salvation is available without baptism. While the first view says that baptism serves no definable purpose other than identifying with Christ in a public declaration, this view says that baptism does play a role in the life of a Christian: the Holy Spirit (perhaps the primary gift of the New Covenant) indwells the person at this time. However, salvation is available without the indwelling presence of the Holy Spirit. Faith, repentance, and confession are all that are truly needed, though baptism is definitely desired. This view has come into being through an exegetical approach to Romans 1-8; the argument (given briefly here) goes as follows:

                      The Apostle Paul wrote his letter to the Romans for two primary purposes. The first purpose was to bring reconciliation between Jewish and Gentile Christians. Both were at odds with one another, and a division in the church at Rome had come into existence. Paul writes to bring them back together as a single, unified entity. He also writes to present basic doctrinal truths regarding salvation, since the Christians in Rome had no apostolic guidance; most of the Christians in Rome had become Christians throughout the rest of the Roman empire while on travels, bringing their Christian faith to their workplaces and homes in the capitol city. The first eight chapters deals extensively with salvation; chapters 9-11 deal with the question of the Jews’ place in the unfolding story of the gospel; and the following chapters take the theology Paul has presented and examines how it looks weaved into human life. Baptism’s role in salvation is dealt with in chapters 6-8.

                      In chapters 1-3, Paul makes it very clear that everyone—Jews and Gentiles (Gentiles are non-Jews) have the “double-trouble” problem: they are guilty and thus under penalty of hell, and they are sin-sick with the sin-disease. In chapters 4-5, the Apostle Paul then states that there is hope despite the apparent hopelessness: Christ! Through faith in Christ (true faith, remember, is tied to repentance, of which confession is an integral part), one is justified before God, i.e. made right. The guilt is taken away and the penalty of hell is removed. Thus the person has salvation. But there’s more: in chapters 6-8, Paul explores the role of baptism in a person’s life. It is in baptism that one is indwelt with the Holy Spirit, the primary gift of the New Covenant, spoken of by the prophet Joel (Joel 2.32). Through baptism, one is granted the Holy Spirit and all the benefits that come along with Him. This is justification and then some. Thus baptism plays a crucial role, but it is not necessary for salvation. Salvation—being made right with God—takes place only through faith in the Messiah.


                      Hot Topics Within The Baptismal Debate

                      Currently there are two subtopics that are under intense debate when it comes to baptism. The first is, “How should baptism be done?” and “Should babies be baptized?” This is a biblical approach to these two topics.

                      First, “How should baptism be done?” Throughout the many denominations of Christianity, baptism takes place in several different ways: entire immersion, sprinkling of water, daubing of water, pouring of water. The biblical definition of baptism taken from the original Greek of the New Testament is this: the momentary immersion of the body into a pool of water. Thus sprinkling or daubing or pouring do not count as baptism. The Greek word for baptize—baptizo—means “to dip, to immerse”; the Greek word for baptism—baptismo—means “immersion.” The Greek lexicon adds some other meanings as well to baptizo as used in the daily usage of the ancient Greeks: “dip,” “plunge,” “submerge,” “sink,” “go under,” and “drown.” Also, “drench,” “soak,” and “overwhelm.” It is quite clear, isn’t it, that baptism—when looked at in the original Greek—is to be done by total immersion? Also, the symbolism of baptism requires immersion (even those proponents of baptism-needed-for-salvation do not deny that there is symbolism to baptism): total immersion symbolizes the saving events of Christ’s death, burial, resurrection as well as the death, burial, and resurrection of the sinner who has become a member of Christ’s church (Romans 6.3-11, Colossians 2.12). Biblically, baptism is total immersion of the person in a body of water.

                      Second, “Should babies be baptized?” Many people and denominations baptize babies for two main reasons: to cure them of their guilt for sin and enslavement to sin (though, let it be stated, children are pure until they come to understand God’s Law and the significance of breaking it); and second, to show that they are Christians because their parents are Christians (identity with a religion via birth is a practice of the Old Testament, but not of the New). Biblically, there are many reasons why babies should not be baptized. First, children are pure until they understand God’s Law and the significance of breaking it (Rom 4.15, 7.7-11), so there is no penalty of death upon their heads from which they need to be cured from until they come to this realization; infants and little children cannot possibly hold this understanding; so those who baptize for the purpose of cleansing children of guilt are wasting their time. Second, as mentioned above, membership in God’s kingdom comes not by birth-right or heritage but by believing in Christ (John 1.12-13) and placing faith in Christ (Galatians 3.26). Third, there is no mention of infant baptism in all of the New Testament; baptism is always an act of adults or young adults (“What about entire households being baptized [Acts 11.4, 16.15,33, 18.8, 1 Corinthians 1.16]?” It is mere conjecture to believe that these household baptisms involved infants; it probably refers to those who heard the good news [Acts 10.44, 16.32], believed the good news [Acts 16.34, 18.8], and rejoiced at their salvation [Acts 16.34]—babies cannot hear and understand the gospel, cannot put their faith in Christ, and cannot rejoice at the good news of the gospel.) Fourth, baptism follows other actions that babies cannot undertake: hearing the gospel (Acts 18.8), believing the promises of the gospel (Mark 16.16), repenting of sin (Acts 2.38), and calling upon the name of YHWH for salvation (Acts 22.16). Fifth, baptism is a choice; babies and young children are baptized by force, not by choice, so, therefore, their baptism is illegitimate. Thus if a baby is baptize, he or she is merely dunked in, sprinkled with, or daubed upon with water; nothing of any spiritual significance has taken place.

                      Tuesday, May 01, 2007

                      another average tuesday...

                      Courtney and I had a nice, long discussion last night on the hill regarding our relationship, the future, and everything in-between. We mulled over our relationship now and discovered changes that need to be made if we want to have a future together. It was a good conversation, and I'm glad we had it. I can only see so far into the relationship, and sometimes I need to be told where I am not doing too well. Truth is, I don't have too much experience when it comes to relationships, so I need some foreign illumination sometimes. I am thankful Courtney felt comfortable enough with me to bring some of these issues up. Some I knew already existed, others came as a surprise. Nonetheless, things are continuing to go well with this wonderful girl. We've had our arguments and fights, but in the end we've resolved them and grown stronger through them.

                      Megan, Nate, Courtney and I went to the choir ensemble tonight at 7:00. It lasted nearly two hours, but it was very good. They sang a lot of southern gospel songs, which I enjoyed. The atmosphere was euphoric. I had to get up and leave a few times because of major gas, but I didn't miss the best parts of the show. Several of my friends--Kirby, Gerson, Candace, to name a few--are in the choir, so it was good to see them in their "element."

                      Here are some pictures of a trip that Courtney, Trista and I took to Smokey Bones in Florence.











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