I feel drained. Sometimes, when I am surrounded by people constantly, my energy saps away, my happiness begins to leak, and I even become bitter. My selfishness comes forth to show its true colors and I have to ask forgiveness from others for the way I treat them. It becomes difficult for me, in some ways, to be the generous and loving person Christ calls me to be. More people are sleeping downstairs, but in an effort to touch but a fragment of solace, I have dragged my precious bedside items up here into the dark and abandoned living room, and I sit in this chair and type, adoring the silence. Being around so many people with no breaks for relief completely sucks the livelihood out of me. I am thankful even for a few ephemeral moments of solitude. I believe we all need time for solitude in our lives.