I am such a stubborn person. I truly am. I will tell you why: God tells me one thing, speaks to my heart, and I hear Him clearly, but I do something totally different. The next day God says the same exact thing, except in different ways; I don't pretend to misunderstand, I do understand, and I understand quite well. But I am apathetic. In the quite times, in the silence, He whispers sweet nothings in my ears, and I am finally forced to just stop, look at my life, and acknowledge He is right. He always is. He is brilliant and loving and there's none better.

Sometimes I am just too selfish to chase after Him, even when He chases after me. Something is wrong within me; to be blatantly honest, sometimes I would rather read a book - or write one - than develop intimacy with God. I am not blind. There is a war going on over me and my intimacy with God. The King whispers in my ear and the Enemy throws distractions my way. I often fall for the trap. He has been whispering to me many days now, and I cannot block His voice. He is quite the persistent One. He is the Way, the Truth, and the Life. How come we doubt this?